It's been quite a while...but I am back from my hermitage.

That's right, I've been away on a little hermitage the past year, but now I am back. I have spent all this time taking a step back and looking at the world through a different point of view. I have grown exponentially in terms of spirituality over the past year, and I am ever smarter in terms of my occult knowledge. I continue to grow on my path in life and every day I learn something new or am made aware of another aspect of spirituality. Recently, I have been reading up on voodoo and hoodoo, and casting my own little spells. I also finally have a nice little herb cabinet sort of thing with some common herbs and some not so common herbs (like rose hips, dittany of crete, dogbane, and a few others). I've also begun planting, and a couple of my plants have died, but it was to be expected. So far, though, I have a gorwing DIttany of Crete plant, a growing White Sage plant, a growing Belladonna plant, a growing Creeping Rosemary plant, and two growing Salvia Divinorum plants. I recently planted a LOT of Lavender plants, and I guess we'll see where that goes. The ones that I am the most excited about, though, are obviously my two Salvia Divinorum plants. I cannot wait till they are fully grown and ready to be harvested..... oh man, I am going to have soooo much fun. Thank you for reading, this is all for now.

Animal speak?!?

So I was over at my buddy AJ's house on Sunday partying it up and stuff, and at one point that night their dog was making a lot of noise in its kennel so I went up and let it go outside for a while.... after a few minutes it started scratching at the door so I went over and let it back in... it proceeded to running around the house, and I tried multiple times to get it to go back into its kennel but it would always just run right back around me... so finally I waited for it to come back near me, and I closed my eyes and found my quiet space and reached out to it and asked it to just make things easier for me and get into its kennel.... and when I opened my eyes, he walked right into his kennel without me even signaling for him to do so.

....so I guess my question is.... weird coincidence, or an actual account of psychic communication with animals?? Thoughts/opinions on this little episode?

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So another thing just came up.... I was going over my dream journal and I realized that the past few dreams that I have had have had some common symbols.... they are: the ocean/sea, family/friends, a house, and pizza. Yes, pizza. lol. Do any of you who are good at dream interpretations have any thoughts on these recurring symbols?? You can click on that link above (the dream journal link) if you want to read the whole dreams (which you are also welcome to interpret, of course).

wonderful.

So i just got back home from a Full Moon Ritual with a bunch of pagans in San Diego County... it was awesome. I loved it. It was my first ritual and I didn't quite know what to expect, but it was so much fun! The people were great and everyone was so friendly and I just loved it all. It was a wonderful experience. I can't wait for more meetups with the pagans in the area. I had a wonderful conversation with the high priestess of the ceremony afterwards and she shared many enlightening things about life and stuff and she said that she had sensed that there was an archangel working with me.... I figure that it's Metatron, because of that one period of time when I would always see his name all over the place. But anyway....this is exactly what I have been looking for to help complete my pagan experience... this is just the bit of motivation that I need to keep on going with my pagan studies and spiritual growth... so I plan on doing more of these and learning a lot more.

on another note, in dealing with synchronicity, for some odd reason that I do not quite know yet, lately gay stuff has been popping up around me.... i mean just very recently. like in the past two days it seems like the whole world is screaming gay at me lol. i don't quite understand why but it seems like no matter where I go, there always seems to be something gay that shows up or happens...hmmm. i wonder what it all means. any thoughts, folks?

It's been a while...

I've been busy with work so I haven't really had the time to update you guys, sorry for that. Just for the sake of letting you all know that I'm still here and I still intend on keeping this blog updates, I will post a dream that I had this morning.... Please share your thoughts and interpretations. I've never dreamt about anything involving aliens before, so I thought this was interesting.

I dreamt I was sitting outside at the smoke pit smoking, and there were a couple of people around me, and suddenly I saw a huge alien spaceship flying over us... I started freaking out but at first no one else could see it, then I started to see more of them and after a few minutes everyone else could see them. then they started shooting these beams out and whoever they hit would instantly become their drone slaves. I left the smoke pit and headed up to my room as soon as I saw the first bunch of people get turned into slaves, and I escaped just in time because a few minutes after I left the smoke pit, a huge beam hit it and everyone that was still there became drone slaves. I called my best friend bobby and I was freaking out over the phone telling him to hurry up and get indoors to his room as soon as possible because he would get turned into a mindless alien slave if he got hit by the beams. I was doing some stuff in my room for a while and then I heard loud knocking at my door. I asked who it was and I peeked through the peephole and saw Bobby standing outside so I opened the door immediately, and I tried to close it as soon as I opened it, because when I opened it there were three alien drones standing next to him. I tried my best to close the door, I was pushing on it with all my might and even using the wall behind me for extra force but they were starting to overpower me... so I reached out and grabbed Bobby and pulled him in and I somehow managed to shut the door after that. Then I grabbed hold of Bobby and held him in my arms and told him that I was very sorry for what had happened and that I would find a way, I would do whatever it takes to get him back to normal... but because he was already a drone slave he had no response... and that's when I woke up.

any thoughts?

More EVPs from our second Ouija session.....

So I finally mustered up the courage to go over the rest of the audio from our second Ouija session... or rather, I finally got off my lazy ass and made the time to do so... I could have just as easily done it in the past couple of days, but I have been too lazy to. I have an hour of footage to review in the second session, and about 50 minutes on the first session so it'll take a while.... a very long while. So far I'm about 15 minutes into the second session and I have already caught 7 more EVPs, in addition to that very first one that I found. The first one that I found today caught me by surprise more than the original one that I found; it said "It's too fuckin' hot!" Or at least that's what me and Dylan think it's saying. You be the judge. Well after I post the file. I will post them all up as soon as I finish analyzing the audio track.

Ouija Board experience #2

So later that night we decided to go another round of Ouija boarding, and the following is what we got.



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DN: Is there anyone present in the room?

(no movement)

DN: Is there anyone here that wants to talk with us?

(no movement)

DN: If there is anyone here in the room, please let us know.

(no movement)

DH: Is there anyone among us?

(no movement)

K: [clicking sound is heard on video] Is there anyone here with us?

(no movement) [after a few moments of silence, Denyale turns the lights on]

DN: Maybe they don't like the dark. I'm serious, I heard that once.

K: Is there anyone here with us?

(no movement) [after more silence, I move away from the board and turn the lights off while Dylan and Denyale try the board on their own]

DN: Is it past your bedtime?

(no movement)

DN: We just wanna communicate with you. Just let us know if you're in the room.

(no movement) [after more silence, I switch places with Dylan]

K: Is there anyone here with us?

(no movement)

DN: We're trying to use this board to communicate with you.

(no movement)

K: What is your name?

(no movement)

DN: Would you like to speak with us tonight?

(no movement)

K: Is there anyone in the room that you do not want to speak to?

NO [Dylan returns to the board]

DN: How many people are in the room with us?

5

DN: Do we know any of you?

NO

DN: Would any of you like to talk to a specific one of us?

YES

K: Which one of us would you like to talk to?

YOU

K: What is your name?

JO

K: Are you pointing to O?

NO

K: What letter comes after J?

ON

K: Were you pointing to N?

NO

K: What is your name?

JO

K: How old are you?

6

K: Are you 6 years old?

YES

K: Where are you from?

YAKIMA

K: What message do you have for me?

KAG

K: Can you repeat that please?

(at 15:04 on the video, "Jesus" and "oh my God" was heard and sounded like two separate voices [EVP]) KAH

K: What message do you have for me?

6

K: Are you 6 years old?

YES

K: Do you have a message for any of us?

YES

K: What are you here to tell us?

KAG

K: Are those initials of someone?

NO

K: Can you tell us what KAG means?

UH

K: Do you prefer the light being off?

YES

K: Are you scared?

NO

K: Is my spirit guide present?

NO

K: Are any of our spirit guides present?

YES

K: Whose spirit guide is present with us?

DH

K: Is Dylan's spirit guide here with us?

YES

K: Are we currently speaking to Dylan's spirit guide?

NO

K: May we speak to Dylan's spirit guide?

YES

K: What is the name of the person we are speaking to right now?

KIM

DH: Is there a message that you have for me?

YES

DH: Can you tell me what it is?

HOLD INTER

DH: Is it hold interest?

YES

DH: Can you tell me what I need to hold interest in?

HAI

DH: Is that someone's initials?

NO

DH: Is it a person?

YES

DH: Can you give me their initials?

HAI

DH: Is there anything specific I need to know about this person?

YES

DH: Can you tell me what that is?

GOGO "NO"

DH: Can you repeat that?

GOE "NO"

DH: Can you clarify what specific thing about this person that I need to know?

GOOD

DH: They're a good person?

YES

DH: Do I know this person?

NO

DH: Will I meet this person soon?

YES

DH: Can you tell me where I'll meet this person?

LAKE

DH: Can you tell me what lake?

YAKIMA

DN: What lake in Yakima?

MAKAM

DH: Does that mean Makam?

NO

DH: Can you clarify which lake?

(no movement)



DH: Can you tell me which lake in Yakima?

CLELAR

DN: Do you mean Clearlake?

YES

DH: Is Clearlake significant to all three of us?

NO

DH: Is it just significant for me?

YES

DH: Who will I go there with?

N

DH: Can you repeat that?

NA

DH: Do you mean Nash?

YES

DH: When will we go there?

MARCH

DH: Do you know what day in March?

2 "NO"

DH: Can you repeat it?

13

DH: March 13th?

YES

DH: Is there anything important about that date?

YES

DH: What's the significance of March 13th?

MAJASTY

DH: Majesty?

YES

DH: Can you clarify what the significance of March 13 is?

MAGAGEF

DH: Are you still with us?

YES

DH: Can you tell me what Majesty means?

LOVE

DH: Does Majesty have to do with a movie theater?

YES

DH: I'm gonna meet this person at a movie theater?

YES

DH: Can you tell me again the name of the person I'm supposed to meet?

(no movement)

DH: Can you tell me who I'm supposed to meet?

(no movement)

DH: Are you still with us?

(no movement)

DH: Do you not know the name of the person I'm supposed to meet?

NO

DH: You do know the name of the person?

YES

DN: Is she a friend of mine?

YES

DN: Which one?

KA "NO"

DN: Can you tell us again?

NAH

DN: Are those initials?

YES

DN: What else would you like to tell us while you're with us?

MAKE GOOD JU

DN: What comes after U?

N

DN: Make good what?

JUAH

DN: Are you trying to spell judgement?

YES

DN: Make good judgement? On what?

HE

DN: Make good judgement on he?

YES

DN: Who is he?

JOE

DN: Make good judgement on Joe?

YES

DN: What's the first letter of Joe's last name?

(no movement)

DN: Did you mean M for the last name?

NO

DN: Do we know this person?

YES

DN: How do we know this person? How do we know Joe?

(no movement)

DN: Are you still here?

(no movement)

DN: Are we still speaking with Kim?

YES

DN: Kim, how many people are in this room with you?

4

DN: Can you call Radio's spirit guide?

YES

DN: Are they here?

NO

DN: Do I have a spirit guide here?

YES

DN: What's the name of my spirit guide that's with me?

AD

DN: What comes after D?

E

DN: What next?

(no movement)

DN: Is there another letter after E?

(no movement)

DN: Do I know my spirit guide?

YES

DN: Was I close with my spirit guide?

YES

DN: How long has this person been my spirit guide?

4

DN: 4 what?

NO

DN: Not 4? How long?

5N

DN: Is that the last letter of the spirit guide's name?

NO

DN: Is this spirit guide a relative of mine?

YES

DN: If the spirit guide could give me one word, what would it be, so that I know who it is?

FJ

DN: Do you mean FJ?

NO

DN: How do I know who my spirit guide is?

FISH

DN: Fish?

YES

DN: What's the first letter of my spirit guide's first name?

F

DN: Did you mean F?

NO

DN: Can you try again?

T

DN: Is my spirit guide proud of me?

YES

DN: Is there anything that my spirit guide would like to say to my mother?

GOOD JOB

DN: Good job?

YES

DN: Good job for what?

GRAND

DN: What comes after D?

(no movement)

DN: Good job grand? Is that what you meant to say?

(no movement)

DN: Can my spirit guide tell me what caused you to leave this earth?

BINDLAKOH

DN: I don't know what you're trying to tell us... can you be more specific?

BINDLAKAH

DN: Bind lakah? Is that what you're trying to say?

NO

DN: Are we still speaking with my spirit guide?

YES

DN: To prove you are who I think you are, can you tell me what your cat's name was? Your black, fat cat?

ZOBY

DN: Do you have your glasses on?

NO

DN: Did you mean Toby?

YES [Dylan gets up to blow his nose]

DN: Can I call you Grandpa?

YES [Dylan returns to the table]

DN: What do you miss most, Grandpa?

GR "NO" G

DN: What comes after G, Grandpa?

O

DN: GO where?

(no movement)

DN: You have to go?

YES

DN: Will you be back?

YES [we took a short break at this point to laugh and reflect upon what had just happened with the grandpa and the glasses... at this point I suddenly felt my whole body warm up, a sudden rush of warmth came through me and stayed that way for a while.... neither of them were feeling the warmth though. At this point, I took mediumship again, and just before I asked my question, the sound of a sigh or "hahhh" is heard on the video (EVP), as if it had been right in front of my computer, at 57:40]

K: Is there anyone here that would like to speak to me?

(no movement)

K: Is there anyone here that would like to speak to us?

(no movement) [possible EVP at 58:10]

K: Is there anyone here?

NO

K: Is there anyone around?

NO

K: Would you like to speak with us?

NO

K: Is there anyone else around?

(no movement)

DN: Would you like to speak with us maybe tomorrow?

YES

K: Thank you to all the spirits that were present in this session tonight, thank you for the messages that you presented to us. We ask that you come again when we need to speak with you.



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I am currently still trying to edit the audio files from both sessions to find out if there are more EVPs... I will post more clips as soon as I can get them ready. Let me know what you think!



Here is the first one, I put two files on for comparison purposes. This first one I included some of the surrounding audio so that you could easily tell where the EVP was.

EVP with my voice

This next file is just the EVP itself, amplified so that it is clearer and louder.

EVP, isolated and amplified

Ouija Board experiences...

So Den, Dylan, and I took our group occult experiences even further tonight by using a Ouija board. I did the protection ritual first (the one that I had posted in the previous blog entry), and then we proceeded to using the board. The first time, it didn't take long for us to get a response, and the first name that we got was Yezai... at first he said that he was there to talk to me, but then he started saying something about Yakima and a lake, so Dylan and I looked over at Den and she shrugged cuz she said he was supposed to be talking to me... so anyway, we eventually found out that there were 5 spirits around initially, and then later on when the answers were getting garbled up again we asked how many there were and there were only 4 left. Eventually we ended up getting word from Dylan's spirit guide, Kim, and she got some stuff out before the session ended. The video for this session will be posted as soon as I have a chance to look through and analyze the footage tomorrow.

The odd thing about this first session that we noted after it was all over, was when Dylan's phone rang, he got up and went outside to answer it, but the first time he picked up it was all static-y and he couldn't hear anything.... so he hung up, and then when Lance (our friend who had called him) tried to call him back, it was busy (even though Dylan wasn't using his phone at the time). Another weird instance was the whole Yakima thing, because the whole time Den was thinking that it might have been her Grandpa trying to talk to her.... and she and her mom are usually very connected when it comes to that stuff, so she called her mom up to ask if she had been thinking about her grandfather at all lately, and her mother had said that he was on her mind all day.... and it had started about an hour or so ago (when we had begun the sitting).

Weird coincidences? I think not. But you decide. After reviewing the video for this first session, I found multiple times in the video where there was a rapid clicking noise, such as the sound of keys being pressed on the keyboard... I don't think the sound could have come from an application on my computer, though, because I had muted the system volume.... the clicking sound remains a mystery for now, until I look into it more. It's probably just random sounds or something but you never know, right?

SO anyway, without further ado, here is the transcript of our session. Let me know if you know anything about it or can tell us anything or give us some suggestions for clearer contact...

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K: Is there anyone here who wishes to speak with us?

YES

K: Thank you. What is your name?

[clicking noise is heard in video repeatedly three times]

K: Can you tell us your name?

YEZAI

K: Is your name Yezai?

YES

K: Where are you from?

LARG

K: Are you from Larg?

(no movement)

K: How old are you?

70

K: Are you 70 years old?

YES

K: Are you here to tell a particular person at this table anything?

YES

K: What are the initials of the person you wish to communicate with?

KJ [clicking noise is once again heard on video]

K: Do you wish to tell me something?

YES

K: What is your message for me?

TELLABLB

K: Can you repeat that please?

LAKE

K: Lake? What about the lake?

YAKIMA

K: What can you tell us about the lake in Yakima?

KIA

K: Kia? Can you repeat that please?

KIN

K: Kin? Were you trying to tell us "Kin"?

YES

K: What do you want to tell us about Kin?

KA

K: Ka...Can you repeat that please?

KH

K: Who is speaking to us right now?

AHCMG

K: How many people are here?

5

K: Is Denyale's grandpa here?

(no movement)

K: Is there anyone here for Denyale?

YES

K: What is the name of the person who wishes to speak to Denyale?

YE

K: Can you repeat that please?

[Dylan steps out to answer his phone] YE

K: Can you spell your last name for us please?

MAMIJ [slight clicking noise is heard on video again]

K: Is your last name Mamij?

NO

K: Has Denyale met you before?

NO

K: What is your message for Denyale?

HMOYAKIMA

K: Are you trying to tell Denyale that she needs to go home to Yakima?

YES

K: Why does Denyale need to go home to Yakima?

MEMORY

K: Who does she need to remember?

KI [Dylan returns to the table]

K: Are you trying to tell Denyale about her mother Kimberly?

YES

K: What about her mother?

YEZAI

K: Are we speaking to Yezai again?

(no movement)

K: Who are we speaking to?

MAH

K: Is your name Mah?

(no movement)

K: Are MAH your initials?

YES

K: Who are you here to speak to?

KI

K: Can you repeat that please? Who are you here to speak to?

KI

K: What's after the I?

M

K: KIm? What about Kim?

NMA

K: Can you clarify your message for us please?

MI [three rapid clicking noises are heard on the video]

K: Who are we speaking to?

KHI

K: Is your name Khi?

NO [clicking sound heard on video again]

K: Are KHI your initials?

NO

K: Can you spell out your name for us please?

LIKEU

K: Do you like us?

YES [clicking noises are heard on video again, as if someone is typing]

K: Do you have a message for one of us?

YES

K: Who is this message for?

DUE

K: What can you tell us about the lake in Yakima?

LCG

K: Is LCG a person?

NO [Dylan leaves the table and returns after a few seconds]

K: What is LCG?

RU

K: We can't understand. Can you please make your messages clearer for us?

NO

K: What do we need to know?

ILUKEU

K: I Luke you? How old are you?

23

K: Are you 23?

NO [movement of the planchette suddenly gets faster from here]

K: How old are you?

3

K: Are you 3 years old?

YES

K: Are you a boy?

NO

K: Do you stay here in this house?

NO

K: Where do you stay?

NOT

K: Can we speak to somebody else?

YES

K: Who is speaking to us now?

KIMBE

K: Is that your name?

NO

K: Can you tell us your name please?

NO

K: Is there something that we can help you with?

NO

K: Is there something that you need to tell us?

NO

K: Why are you here?

NOTHING

K: How many people are here now?

4

K: Do any of you stay in this house?

NO

K: Do any of you visit this house often?

YES

K: What is the name of the person that visits often?

KIM

K: Are we speaking to Kim right now?

YES

K: Do you know who Dylan is, Kim?

YES

K: Are you Dylan's spirit guide?

YES

K: What is your message for Dylan?

HQIE

K: Did you mean to spell out HQIE?

NO

K: Can you please show us what you meant to spell out?

HOLD

K: Hold? Hold what?

INTEREST

K: Hold interest in what?

IDELE

K: Did you mean to spell out IDELE?

NO

K: Can you please spell out what you meant to tell us?

[clicking noise is heard on video again] IDLA [clicking noise again] J

K: Did you mean to spell out IDLAJ?

NO

K: Are you upset that we cannot understand what you're trying to tell us?

NO

K: What does Dylan need to hold interest in?

PH

K: Can you finish spelling the word please?

(no movement)

K: Is Kim still with us right now?

(no movement)

K: Is anyone still with us?

(no movement)

K: Thank you for your presence, we will try again later. Goodbye.

Reading for Shar

Ok so my friend Sharmaine came to me all distraught with her situation with her boyfriend Rico, and I offered to do a tarot card reading for her (it's amazing how suddenly all these opportunities for me to get practice in keep showing up one after the other). She said yes she needed one, so I went online to Aeclectic Tarot to find a spread that suited her situation and I found one called the Clarifying Love Spread. This is what I used to give the following reading. If you'll notice, I also am not using my usual Witches Tarot deck; instead I am using the traditional Rider-Waite deck. Some of my thoughts on this reading: I found this a little more difficult to do than all my previous readings. Like it was a lot harder for me to be able to interpret the message of the cards and apply it to her situation. Maybe it's because I'm using a new deck? I don't know. Or maybe I just need more practice so I can get to the point where I know what each card means/represents by heart and I don't have to look at the books anymore.... I'll get there.... Someday. So anyway, on to the reading:

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[17:36:27] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

ok so what is your question?

[17:37:24] Sharmaine says:

idk.. so many are going through my mind.. ughhh.. like I wonder if it'll fall apart or if he still feels the same way for me.. cuz I know these thoughts could also just be me being too emotional cuz of PMS. it happens a lot believe me

[17:44:01] Sharmaine joins conversation

[17:44:18] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

so i have laid your cards out, you can relax now. i will get into the reading here in a bit

[17:44:28] Sharmaine says:

ok

[17:48:22] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

Ok so i'm getting that at the moment you are kind of feeling like the unappreciated mother who gives and shares her abundance of wealth but doesn't feel loved in return

[17:48:43] Sharmaine says:

mother? uhh.. yeah ok pretty much

[17:52:02] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

And now this whole conflict is crossing you and you need to take a stand in it all. You must believe in your position and yourself. Ask yourself if it's worth the struggle. Is it important? Does it have value to you? If it is, then keep on fighting, and stand your ground firmly. Your strength of character will see you through.

[17:52:59] Sharmaine says:

so basically.. I can't give into the whole long distance relationship..

[17:53:14] Sharmaine says:

meaning I can't give up on the relationship cuz of the distance..

[17:54:14] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

where he stands in the relationship, he is the child or young at heart adult whose interactions with you involve emotional needs, moodiness, love, and intimacy. He is an evenue for you to be able to express your true love and intimacy

[17:57:47] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

what's crossing him is that he hasn't yet fully mastered his emotions, and he needs to be able to hold in his anger when it comes to you. at the moment he is determined to succeed without letting things distract him

[17:57:58] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

maybe there is something at work that requires his full attention?

[17:59:36] Sharmaine says:

more like gets all his attention.. he works from 9-6 he has to get up at 6am for PT for 2 hours. then he 1 hour to get ready for work. That's when he texts me for his good morning and tells me he loves me. But after work.. he just goes straight to sleep. He barely texts me after work if I'm lucky I'll get an "i love you" once from him but it hardly ever happens

[18:00:03] Sharmaine says:

(oops meant the same thing. Stupid me)

[18:01:38] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

so you know deep inside that and end to hostility is possible. You know that a time of joy will come soon enough but you need to work hard to restore the harmony in your relationship. This is the time for greater closeness.

[18:07:30] Sharmaine says:

long distance relationships are hard. I knew that before I got into it. and I know I can't let the distance get to me.. but sometimes you just want some time with them you know? and its hard when you put time for them and they can't or don't have time for you

[18:08:30] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

He thinks that something is coming to an end.... whether it be something at work or something with you two, he thinks that it may be time to conclude whatever he has been doing and move on to something new. But remember that you have the power within you to fight for it as long as your feet stay firmly planted in the ground and you make things work for you two

[18:09:26] Sharmaine says:

ok.. now you're scaring me.. :(

[18:10:17] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

No like I told you with your card earlier, if you truly belive inyour heart that this is worth keepnig up the good fight, you can carry yourself through this conflict in your life and make it work for you

[18:10:38] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

as long as you stay firmly resolved to make things work out, it can and will happen

[18:12:33] Sharmaine says:

yeah.. sometimes I feel like giving up.. like it's sucking the life out of me sometimes.. and with PMS it's worse you know? On ordinary days I won't let it get to me. But PMS? It's like 2 weeks for me and I get so emotional and stressed out with the relationships.. it's always when I'm on PMS we have fights. bad fights like we say things we don't mean.

[18:14:05] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

so what i'm getting for your advice card is a message concerned with permanence. Change is an unavoidable part of life, but constant change is very uncomfortable. You need to concentrate on the long term and work towards a lasting solution. Settle down and make arrangements that will work for you far into the future

[18:15:10] Sharmaine says:

sounds about right.. but.. I can't plan ahead until Rico gets out of the Army next summer.

[18:15:21] Sharmaine says:

that's IF he gets out

[18:15:58] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

for his advice card i'm getting that he feels lost and is wandering aimlessly.... he fears that he might lose and lacks the courage to continue on.... he needs to find his way back to the path and you can help him

[18:17:22] Sharmaine says:

i think he feels sometimes that I'm going to give up on him. to give up on the relationship.. he always tells me "please don't break my heart"

[18:18:51] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

how your energies flow together..... something has changed, usually change is gradual but this was a sudden change and it didn't leave you two enough time to adapt

[18:19:47] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

something's wrong, and you're not responding properly to it. Maybe you're too full of pride, or you're holding back too much anger.... just remember that the disruption occured because it was needed

[18:20:05] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

just try to find the positive in the situation for the moment

[18:25:57] Sharmaine leaves conversation

[18:34:07] Sharmaine joins conversation

[18:34:07] Sharmaine says:

ok I'm back

[18:34:14] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

The otucome for you is that you will be surrounded in an atmosphere of honest, direct communication. you will face the truth and avoid lies and deception and you will get to the heart of the matter.

[18:35:48] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

His outcome is that of challenges. this whole situation is here for him to learn and discover truths from. it is an opportunity for growth disguised as a problem.

[18:36:22] Sharmaine says:

yeah.. I think I'll agree on that

[18:37:58] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

result as a couple is that there is an atmosphere of cheerful and confident enthusiasm. it is very optimistic and upbeat, things are looking good for you two if you follow this course

[18:41:14] Sharmaine says:

yeah.. I understand.. I think I'm just too clingy

[18:41:44] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

lol

[18:41:55] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

how was the reading?? did it make sense?

[18:42:31] Sharmaine says:

sometimes..

[18:44:15] Sharmaine says:

Rico actually takes care of me a lot of times.. makes sure I get enough sleep. but it's vice versa I do the same were kinda equal. It's just that I got so much time on my hands and he doesn't. and I feel like he doesn't try to have time for me

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So there you go, that was my reading for Sharmaine today. What do you think? I was probably off, huh? What are your thoughts on this reading? Let me know! I'd love to hear suggestions on how I can get better at it and make my readings feel much smoother.

Tarot reading for Brandon

So today my buddy Brandon started chatting with me on Facebook and we got around to talking about him and Keisha and what their situation is like now... and well it eventually turned into a tarot reading because I saw the avenue for me to be able to practice my reading skills.... and here it is, complete with the spread image that I made on photoshop, and the picture of the actual layout of the cards:

1.Four of Cups

2. The Moon

3. Ten of Swords

4. Seven of Pentacles

5. Ace of Swords

6. King of Pentacles, The Universe

7. Prince of Cups, The Magician

8. Queen of Wands, Eight of Pentacles

Brandon



oh



ready

10:45amKelvin



alright. What I'm getting for how things stand at the moment is that your life seems stale and flat because you've lost interest in other things now that she's not all there with you, you're stuck emotionally

10:47amBrandon



i agree with the first

10:48amKelvin



2. what your head is telling you about the relationship: The Moon tells me that you have fears and anxieties about the situation; it's also a signal that you feel lost and are wandering around aimlessly, trying to find you way back to your place of clarity and purpose (her).

10:49amBrandonim afraid someone will take her from me.thats my fear



10:50amBrandon is offline.10:51amBrandon is online.

10:51amBrandon



sorry my facebook screwed up im still here

10:51amKelvin



3. what your heart is telling you about the relationship: i'm getting that you feel like you have hit rock bottom with the situation and her not fully being in your life at the moment.... the card i drew symbolizes martyrdom; your heart is telling you that at the moment you kind of feel like a doormat and you are feeling self-deprecating

10:52amBrandon



well she is the only thing i think of most..



i loved her so much that now that shes gone everything feels so bland. not even food tastes good anymore.

10:56amKelvin



exactly. 4. the impression you're giving to her: i'm getting that there is a sense of direction change with you, she feels as if you are now questioning your choices or thinking about change

10:57amBrandon



well ive told her about me changing and being a better man for her

10:58amKelvin



5. what her head is telling her about the relationship: this situation is a challenge that will test her in some way. life had been going smoothly for her for a while, but now the hurdle is here and she must face the challenge with courage, honesty, and a firm resolve.

11:01amBrandon



she is very set on doing a lot for herself right now, w/out having to worry about a bf. i might be the challenge because i want ot be with her so badly. the honesty could be our talk soon and the resolve could be us

11:03amKelvin



6. what her heart is telling her about the relationship: she's in a position right now to realize her heart's desire. the card is telling me that integration plays a role for her right now, she must bring the separate parts together and create synthesis in order to find a beautiful solution to the situation

11:06amBrandon



i may be the seperate part. i want her to be happy and have fun and i understand what she wants, its just extremely hard for me to cope with it. i know that if i was just cool with everything then things would fall into place better

11:06amKelvin



7. the impression she gives you: her emotions and intuition are set on understanding exactly what she wants and she is committed to getting it

11:06amBrandon



so basically what i said

11:09amBrandon



seems like im the missing piece in the puzzle.

11:11amKelvin



8. where things are headed in the next few months: ok so for this one, the card is telling you to keep hammering away at the situation, you must give 110% (which, from what I'm getting from you, you already are) to the situation at hand. just buckle down and do it. the labor you put out is deeply satisfying and productive. the key to success here is extraordinary effort. just give it your all in every way.

11:12amBrandon



i'll do everything in my power. i have to, i need her so much...

11:12amKelvin



and well i thought i was done, but while i was putting the cards back in the deck and shuffling, another final card popped out

11:13amBrandon



you missed one?



or it fell out? is that like a sign



i dunno how that works

11:13amKelvin



it fell out, which means that there's something else that needs to get to you



here it is: the card that popped out was The Lovers

11:14amBrandon



oh

11:15amBrandon



i wonder what it means

11:17amKelvinso what i'm getting from this card is that the urge for union is in its highest form, and that your relationship with her is based on deep love. the lovers card symbolizes the attractive force that drew you two together in the relationship. what i'm getting from the fact that it popped out at the last minute, after I thought I was finished with the reading, is that maybe you should take some time to look at the situation and find out what it was that drew you two together back in the day, figure it out and try to bring out elements or aspects of that first meeting, that first attraction into her life now

11:20amBrandon



we had a lot in common. that has to be some sort of sign. im always telling her that i want to get things back to the way they were when we met or atleast close to it

11:22amKelvin



I see.... well then maybe instead of telling her, you could surprise her sometime, and try to recreate a scene or event that cemented your reletionship, you know, try to remind her why it is that you love her so much



remind her how you felt with each other back in the day

so what did you think of my reading?

11:26amBrandon



frighteningly accurate lol

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So there you go, my reading for today. It's good practice I suppose, and like they say, the only way to get good at something is through constant practice. Hopefully I am improving with each reading that I do. I also do readings on myself and a daily card draw type of thing, so I will hopefully be able to learn quicker.







Let me know what you guys think.

Voodoo?

I just remembered outta nowhere that when I was a kid, I was obsessed with making voodoo dolls. I don't know where it came from or why I was doing it, but I used to make them all the time.... I remember cutting up the fabric into shapes of people, sewing two pieces together and leaving an opening for stuffing, and then sewing it shut. Odd.... very odd. And kinda creepy I'd imagine from a spectator's point of view... a little kid making and playing with voodoo dolls? hmmm....

Tarot Card reading for Chris

Ok so today Chris approached me with a question about his long time friend, and what he should do about his current situation with him. here is his message:

[11:39:13] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Ok its just one question



[11:39:32] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: I just want to know if there ever was a possibility or even a chance for us to be together in the future....



And so, the first thought that came to mind was, "What a great opportunity for me to practice my reading skills!" And so I told him to hold on real quick while I busted out my tarot cards. The deck I am using at the moment is The Witches Tarot; though it isn't the first deck that I've bought (in the past, I have bought The Vampire Tarot and The Ancient Egyptian Oracle), it's definitely the first one that I can actually understand and connect with. I really like the images in the cards; when I can't quite connect with the meanings in the book, I look at the cards again and am able to understand the meaning through the illustration. So anyway, the decks that I bought before, I bought at a time when my mind wasn't quite advanced enough to understand how they worked and I guess I just wasn't mature enough to be able to use them "properly." With this deck, though, I am much older and I now have an understanding of how cards work for us, so that definitely contributes to the success of my reading today. I have posted a picture of the spread and I also posted the chat log below it so you can check out how it went and give me feedback on how I did. This is my first reading ever with tarot cards, and I am quite aware that I have a long way to go until I can get real good at it, so please bear with me if things I said seem kind of verbatim at times. Just give me time, and I will grow. Practice is the best way to improve, right? Oh, and if you're not familiar with The Witches Tarot, you're probably wondering why there are three cards in position 5 on the spread. This deck uses court cards to modify the next card dealt. So if you draw a court card, you draw another card and place it on top of that court card, and they should be read together. The court card will signify the status of the card on top of it. This one (#5) was a little more difficult for me to interpret, and you will probably see that when you rad the chat log. So without further ado, here it is.



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1. Three of Wands

2. Four of Pentacles

3. Judgement

4. Nine of Wands

5. King of Pentacles, Prince of Swords, Ten of Cups

6. Ace of Swords

7. Seven of Pentacles

8. Ten of Swords

9. The Moon

10. The Tower

[12:03:55] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: let's begin.

[12:05:06] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: ok

[12:05:47] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: so for present influences i'm getting that your ideas are taking shape and have finally begun to get clearer for you. you have an understanding now of what needs to happen. you should follow up on your ideas and continue to pursue them.



[12:05:55] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 2.

[12:06:01] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: present events that will affect you:

[12:06:30] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: hmm ok that means the decision I've made for myself regarding the situation needs to be executed

[12:07:08] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Ee gad ok

[12:07:37] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: you're at a point in your life where you want safety, security, etc. you wanna be able to settle down in a good house, etc.

[12:07:54] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: being healthy, etc.

[12:07:59] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Wow...

[12:08:10] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: You hit the bullseye with that one Rodeo

[12:08:27] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 3. past events that will affect you:

[12:09:38] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your spiritual awakening has brought you into a mode where you see things that are more than the physical realm has offered. you possibly might even have seen past lives in play.

[12:10:08] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 4. passing influences:

[12:10:45] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: WOW @ 3

[12:10:47] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: So dead on

[12:11:28] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your psychic passages are opening, providing you deeper levels of consciousness and improved memory. your ideals are about to become reality and offer you independence.

[12:11:37] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 5. future events:

[12:15:38] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your true feelings will manifest, and your feelings will no longer be unsure. what you have intuited will come to pass, and this has already taken shape in action, but is currently still in the stage of creative urge.

[12:15:56] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: anything that can manifest on the physical has become possible.



[12:16:08] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 6. future influences:



[12:16:16] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: hmm ok



[12:18:00] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: initiative, courage, and the ability to act are in play here. the card i drew represents a new action, or act of will. you might discover a new way of doing things that will possibly result in a step forward.



[12:18:25] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 7. environment:



[12:20:34] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your environment is helping you to acheive your physical goal, resulting in a long-awaited harvest for you.

[12:20:52] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: hmm ok

[12:22:06] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your strength here lies in your ability to see the physical results of your actions, however pleasant or unpleasant they may be, depending on what action you take.

[12:22:16] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 9. hopes and fears:

[12:22:24] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Clearly...

[12:24:14] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: you're worried about him being able to accept things that are "hidden beneath the surface" and discovering your nature.....

[12:24:24] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: and finally, 10. final outcome...

[12:25:49] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Hidden beneath his surface

[12:25:59] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: because he's known how I've felt about him for the last 7 years yo

[12:26:16] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: and yet he still stayed with his gf and went out with 2 girls after that

[12:26:24] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: you are moving toward illumination. everything has led you to a point where your personal insights and intuition will lead you in the right direction. you must trust that whatever you feel is right, is actually right.

[12:26:53] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: yes and confronting him and telling him and asking him

[12:26:56] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Is the right thing

[12:27:10] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Because I feel, or I know its prevented me from moving past all my indiscretions

[12:27:12] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: and just moving on

[12:30:09] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: i see...

[12:30:15] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: so what do you think of my reading?

[12:30:31] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Its more than fairly accurate

[12:30:42] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Its dead on

[12:30:53] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: I just now need to accomplish what I have set myself out to do

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So..... what do you guys think? All comments are welcome... I hope to be reading some good suggestions/pointers from whoever reads this.