My progress so far...

So I have made a lot of progress in the past couple of months.... I've attended a bunch of rituals, raised a bunch of energy, and am now able to focus inward a lot better during meditation..... lately though, like in the past week or so, I've been kinda getting a calling to do some kind of magickal work.... I don't really know what it is just yet, all I know is that it's calling out to me and I'm supposed to do something about it. I'm really excited about the direction that my life is going in now, and it can really only get better from here. I am opening myself up to the mysteries and wonders of the Universe and Life. I recently registered for classes under a formal teacher, Carrie of Indigo Paths. and I am really excited to get the ball rolling on this part of my life. Valera recommended her to me so I sought her out, and now I am a student in her Basic Witchcraft class which starts on the 17th and lasts for 14 weeks! I can't wait to learn everything that she has to teach.... I am REALLY, REALLY excited for this!!

Animal speak?!?

So I was over at my buddy AJ's house on Sunday partying it up and stuff, and at one point that night their dog was making a lot of noise in its kennel so I went up and let it go outside for a while.... after a few minutes it started scratching at the door so I went over and let it back in... it proceeded to running around the house, and I tried multiple times to get it to go back into its kennel but it would always just run right back around me... so finally I waited for it to come back near me, and I closed my eyes and found my quiet space and reached out to it and asked it to just make things easier for me and get into its kennel.... and when I opened my eyes, he walked right into his kennel without me even signaling for him to do so.

....so I guess my question is.... weird coincidence, or an actual account of psychic communication with animals?? Thoughts/opinions on this little episode?

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So another thing just came up.... I was going over my dream journal and I realized that the past few dreams that I have had have had some common symbols.... they are: the ocean/sea, family/friends, a house, and pizza. Yes, pizza. lol. Do any of you who are good at dream interpretations have any thoughts on these recurring symbols?? You can click on that link above (the dream journal link) if you want to read the whole dreams (which you are also welcome to interpret, of course).

wonderful.

So i just got back home from a Full Moon Ritual with a bunch of pagans in San Diego County... it was awesome. I loved it. It was my first ritual and I didn't quite know what to expect, but it was so much fun! The people were great and everyone was so friendly and I just loved it all. It was a wonderful experience. I can't wait for more meetups with the pagans in the area. I had a wonderful conversation with the high priestess of the ceremony afterwards and she shared many enlightening things about life and stuff and she said that she had sensed that there was an archangel working with me.... I figure that it's Metatron, because of that one period of time when I would always see his name all over the place. But anyway....this is exactly what I have been looking for to help complete my pagan experience... this is just the bit of motivation that I need to keep on going with my pagan studies and spiritual growth... so I plan on doing more of these and learning a lot more.

on another note, in dealing with synchronicity, for some odd reason that I do not quite know yet, lately gay stuff has been popping up around me.... i mean just very recently. like in the past two days it seems like the whole world is screaming gay at me lol. i don't quite understand why but it seems like no matter where I go, there always seems to be something gay that shows up or happens...hmmm. i wonder what it all means. any thoughts, folks?

Something I noticed lately....

Ever since I moved down here to San Diego, I have noticed a sudden dramatic increase in my intuitive abilities..... in the past week that I've been here, I have been able to always identify which elevator is going to open up when I am waiting for one of the four elevators to get to my floor, when I'm watching tv shows I somehow know exactly almost to the T what will happen next, and then the other day my friend was tossing a coin and asking me and his other friend if it was heads or tails and I got it right every single time.... he did it like over 10 times and I got every single one right. Hmmmmm..... idk, just something that I noticed. Anyone have any thoughts on that?

Salvia Divinorum

So Den, Dylan and I decided to go out and try Salvia Divinorum today.... they wanted to try and see what the trip was like, and I wanted to see how it could help me get into an altered state of mind that I could use in my work. Dylan was the first to go, and Den and I took hits after he did the first one.... Dylan started freaking out and Den and I just started laughing at him because his voice was different, kind of "blobby" idk how else to explain it lol it just was. Then he kept tripping and we kept laughing at him, and then I started to get upset because I wasn't feeling anything from it. So we went and did round two, this time Den started to feel it and she started to freak out and I was still here in full body and mind.... So while I was entertained by her trip I was growing more and more upset at the fact that I still hadn't experienced it. She tripped for a while, and then when she was done, She and Dylan went out and smoked. I went outside to grab the lighter, as I was still upset at not feeling anything from it, and they continued to smoke outside as I sat down and went for round three. This was the one that did it. Shortly after taking a hit, I slumped into the sofa, sitting straight up at first but then my head started feeling heavy so it laid down on its own and my eyes shut and I was immediately in another place. I don't quite know what it was, and I can't really explain it, but I will try my best. I was somewhere that kind of reminded me of my childhood home on Saipan, but I was like sitting on the front porch which was made of cement.... I heard a very loud sound repeating over and over and over again, it sounded like big machinery going on and on, kind of like a printing press I suppose. And then all of a sudden I felt like I was being sucked into the sound, and everything started to fade away into a kaleidoscopic pattern, the kaleidoscopic pattern kept going around and around and it was getting closer and closer to me, until it finally took me into it and absorbed me into the pattern. It kept on going, and I felt like I had to kick up my legs because my body was going sideways to continue fitting in with the pattern, it kept on going around and around and taking me with it. I laughed and called out to Den and I was like "Holy shit get in here!!" but I guess they didn't hear me so they didn't come... the pattern kept on going, the machinery kept on beating the same sound over and over again, and I had been completely absorbed into the kaleidoscopic spinning pattern... eventually I opened my eyes and started to come back.... They had returned to the living room by then, and I asked Den if she heard me call out to her, but she said no the only thing she heard was my constant laughter as they were coming back in... It was at this point that I suddenly had this weird emotional swing, and I got extremely sad that she didn't hear me call out to her... I said, "I called out to you..... but you never came..." and then I just slooped down further into the sofa and let it all sink in for a while... it was a weird feeling.... And then eventually I came back fully and here I am now writing about the whole experience in my blog using Dylan's computer. It was an.... interesting.... experience.