Reading for Shar

Ok so my friend Sharmaine came to me all distraught with her situation with her boyfriend Rico, and I offered to do a tarot card reading for her (it's amazing how suddenly all these opportunities for me to get practice in keep showing up one after the other). She said yes she needed one, so I went online to Aeclectic Tarot to find a spread that suited her situation and I found one called the Clarifying Love Spread. This is what I used to give the following reading. If you'll notice, I also am not using my usual Witches Tarot deck; instead I am using the traditional Rider-Waite deck. Some of my thoughts on this reading: I found this a little more difficult to do than all my previous readings. Like it was a lot harder for me to be able to interpret the message of the cards and apply it to her situation. Maybe it's because I'm using a new deck? I don't know. Or maybe I just need more practice so I can get to the point where I know what each card means/represents by heart and I don't have to look at the books anymore.... I'll get there.... Someday. So anyway, on to the reading:

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[17:36:27] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

ok so what is your question?

[17:37:24] Sharmaine says:

idk.. so many are going through my mind.. ughhh.. like I wonder if it'll fall apart or if he still feels the same way for me.. cuz I know these thoughts could also just be me being too emotional cuz of PMS. it happens a lot believe me

[17:44:01] Sharmaine joins conversation

[17:44:18] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

so i have laid your cards out, you can relax now. i will get into the reading here in a bit

[17:44:28] Sharmaine says:

ok

[17:48:22] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

Ok so i'm getting that at the moment you are kind of feeling like the unappreciated mother who gives and shares her abundance of wealth but doesn't feel loved in return

[17:48:43] Sharmaine says:

mother? uhh.. yeah ok pretty much

[17:52:02] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

And now this whole conflict is crossing you and you need to take a stand in it all. You must believe in your position and yourself. Ask yourself if it's worth the struggle. Is it important? Does it have value to you? If it is, then keep on fighting, and stand your ground firmly. Your strength of character will see you through.

[17:52:59] Sharmaine says:

so basically.. I can't give into the whole long distance relationship..

[17:53:14] Sharmaine says:

meaning I can't give up on the relationship cuz of the distance..

[17:54:14] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

where he stands in the relationship, he is the child or young at heart adult whose interactions with you involve emotional needs, moodiness, love, and intimacy. He is an evenue for you to be able to express your true love and intimacy

[17:57:47] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

what's crossing him is that he hasn't yet fully mastered his emotions, and he needs to be able to hold in his anger when it comes to you. at the moment he is determined to succeed without letting things distract him

[17:57:58] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

maybe there is something at work that requires his full attention?

[17:59:36] Sharmaine says:

more like gets all his attention.. he works from 9-6 he has to get up at 6am for PT for 2 hours. then he 1 hour to get ready for work. That's when he texts me for his good morning and tells me he loves me. But after work.. he just goes straight to sleep. He barely texts me after work if I'm lucky I'll get an "i love you" once from him but it hardly ever happens

[18:00:03] Sharmaine says:

(oops meant the same thing. Stupid me)

[18:01:38] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

so you know deep inside that and end to hostility is possible. You know that a time of joy will come soon enough but you need to work hard to restore the harmony in your relationship. This is the time for greater closeness.

[18:07:30] Sharmaine says:

long distance relationships are hard. I knew that before I got into it. and I know I can't let the distance get to me.. but sometimes you just want some time with them you know? and its hard when you put time for them and they can't or don't have time for you

[18:08:30] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

He thinks that something is coming to an end.... whether it be something at work or something with you two, he thinks that it may be time to conclude whatever he has been doing and move on to something new. But remember that you have the power within you to fight for it as long as your feet stay firmly planted in the ground and you make things work for you two

[18:09:26] Sharmaine says:

ok.. now you're scaring me.. :(

[18:10:17] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

No like I told you with your card earlier, if you truly belive inyour heart that this is worth keepnig up the good fight, you can carry yourself through this conflict in your life and make it work for you

[18:10:38] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

as long as you stay firmly resolved to make things work out, it can and will happen

[18:12:33] Sharmaine says:

yeah.. sometimes I feel like giving up.. like it's sucking the life out of me sometimes.. and with PMS it's worse you know? On ordinary days I won't let it get to me. But PMS? It's like 2 weeks for me and I get so emotional and stressed out with the relationships.. it's always when I'm on PMS we have fights. bad fights like we say things we don't mean.

[18:14:05] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

so what i'm getting for your advice card is a message concerned with permanence. Change is an unavoidable part of life, but constant change is very uncomfortable. You need to concentrate on the long term and work towards a lasting solution. Settle down and make arrangements that will work for you far into the future

[18:15:10] Sharmaine says:

sounds about right.. but.. I can't plan ahead until Rico gets out of the Army next summer.

[18:15:21] Sharmaine says:

that's IF he gets out

[18:15:58] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

for his advice card i'm getting that he feels lost and is wandering aimlessly.... he fears that he might lose and lacks the courage to continue on.... he needs to find his way back to the path and you can help him

[18:17:22] Sharmaine says:

i think he feels sometimes that I'm going to give up on him. to give up on the relationship.. he always tells me "please don't break my heart"

[18:18:51] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

how your energies flow together..... something has changed, usually change is gradual but this was a sudden change and it didn't leave you two enough time to adapt

[18:19:47] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

something's wrong, and you're not responding properly to it. Maybe you're too full of pride, or you're holding back too much anger.... just remember that the disruption occured because it was needed

[18:20:05] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

just try to find the positive in the situation for the moment

[18:25:57] Sharmaine leaves conversation

[18:34:07] Sharmaine joins conversation

[18:34:07] Sharmaine says:

ok I'm back

[18:34:14] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

The otucome for you is that you will be surrounded in an atmosphere of honest, direct communication. you will face the truth and avoid lies and deception and you will get to the heart of the matter.

[18:35:48] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

His outcome is that of challenges. this whole situation is here for him to learn and discover truths from. it is an opportunity for growth disguised as a problem.

[18:36:22] Sharmaine says:

yeah.. I think I'll agree on that

[18:37:58] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

result as a couple is that there is an atmosphere of cheerful and confident enthusiasm. it is very optimistic and upbeat, things are looking good for you two if you follow this course

[18:41:14] Sharmaine says:

yeah.. I understand.. I think I'm just too clingy

[18:41:44] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

lol

[18:41:55] Fun new adventures have just presented themselves to me. says:

how was the reading?? did it make sense?

[18:42:31] Sharmaine says:

sometimes..

[18:44:15] Sharmaine says:

Rico actually takes care of me a lot of times.. makes sure I get enough sleep. but it's vice versa I do the same were kinda equal. It's just that I got so much time on my hands and he doesn't. and I feel like he doesn't try to have time for me

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So there you go, that was my reading for Sharmaine today. What do you think? I was probably off, huh? What are your thoughts on this reading? Let me know! I'd love to hear suggestions on how I can get better at it and make my readings feel much smoother.

Tarot Card reading for Chris

Ok so today Chris approached me with a question about his long time friend, and what he should do about his current situation with him. here is his message:

[11:39:13] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Ok its just one question



[11:39:32] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: I just want to know if there ever was a possibility or even a chance for us to be together in the future....



And so, the first thought that came to mind was, "What a great opportunity for me to practice my reading skills!" And so I told him to hold on real quick while I busted out my tarot cards. The deck I am using at the moment is The Witches Tarot; though it isn't the first deck that I've bought (in the past, I have bought The Vampire Tarot and The Ancient Egyptian Oracle), it's definitely the first one that I can actually understand and connect with. I really like the images in the cards; when I can't quite connect with the meanings in the book, I look at the cards again and am able to understand the meaning through the illustration. So anyway, the decks that I bought before, I bought at a time when my mind wasn't quite advanced enough to understand how they worked and I guess I just wasn't mature enough to be able to use them "properly." With this deck, though, I am much older and I now have an understanding of how cards work for us, so that definitely contributes to the success of my reading today. I have posted a picture of the spread and I also posted the chat log below it so you can check out how it went and give me feedback on how I did. This is my first reading ever with tarot cards, and I am quite aware that I have a long way to go until I can get real good at it, so please bear with me if things I said seem kind of verbatim at times. Just give me time, and I will grow. Practice is the best way to improve, right? Oh, and if you're not familiar with The Witches Tarot, you're probably wondering why there are three cards in position 5 on the spread. This deck uses court cards to modify the next card dealt. So if you draw a court card, you draw another card and place it on top of that court card, and they should be read together. The court card will signify the status of the card on top of it. This one (#5) was a little more difficult for me to interpret, and you will probably see that when you rad the chat log. So without further ado, here it is.



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1. Three of Wands

2. Four of Pentacles

3. Judgement

4. Nine of Wands

5. King of Pentacles, Prince of Swords, Ten of Cups

6. Ace of Swords

7. Seven of Pentacles

8. Ten of Swords

9. The Moon

10. The Tower

[12:03:55] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: let's begin.

[12:05:06] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: ok

[12:05:47] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: so for present influences i'm getting that your ideas are taking shape and have finally begun to get clearer for you. you have an understanding now of what needs to happen. you should follow up on your ideas and continue to pursue them.



[12:05:55] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 2.

[12:06:01] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: present events that will affect you:

[12:06:30] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: hmm ok that means the decision I've made for myself regarding the situation needs to be executed

[12:07:08] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Ee gad ok

[12:07:37] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: you're at a point in your life where you want safety, security, etc. you wanna be able to settle down in a good house, etc.

[12:07:54] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: being healthy, etc.

[12:07:59] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Wow...

[12:08:10] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: You hit the bullseye with that one Rodeo

[12:08:27] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 3. past events that will affect you:

[12:09:38] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your spiritual awakening has brought you into a mode where you see things that are more than the physical realm has offered. you possibly might even have seen past lives in play.

[12:10:08] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 4. passing influences:

[12:10:45] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: WOW @ 3

[12:10:47] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: So dead on

[12:11:28] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your psychic passages are opening, providing you deeper levels of consciousness and improved memory. your ideals are about to become reality and offer you independence.

[12:11:37] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 5. future events:

[12:15:38] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your true feelings will manifest, and your feelings will no longer be unsure. what you have intuited will come to pass, and this has already taken shape in action, but is currently still in the stage of creative urge.

[12:15:56] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: anything that can manifest on the physical has become possible.



[12:16:08] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 6. future influences:



[12:16:16] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: hmm ok



[12:18:00] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: initiative, courage, and the ability to act are in play here. the card i drew represents a new action, or act of will. you might discover a new way of doing things that will possibly result in a step forward.



[12:18:25] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 7. environment:



[12:20:34] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your environment is helping you to acheive your physical goal, resulting in a long-awaited harvest for you.

[12:20:52] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: hmm ok

[12:22:06] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: your strength here lies in your ability to see the physical results of your actions, however pleasant or unpleasant they may be, depending on what action you take.

[12:22:16] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: 9. hopes and fears:

[12:22:24] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Clearly...

[12:24:14] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: you're worried about him being able to accept things that are "hidden beneath the surface" and discovering your nature.....

[12:24:24] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: and finally, 10. final outcome...

[12:25:49] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Hidden beneath his surface

[12:25:59] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: because he's known how I've felt about him for the last 7 years yo

[12:26:16] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: and yet he still stayed with his gf and went out with 2 girls after that

[12:26:24] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: you are moving toward illumination. everything has led you to a point where your personal insights and intuition will lead you in the right direction. you must trust that whatever you feel is right, is actually right.

[12:26:53] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: yes and confronting him and telling him and asking him

[12:26:56] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Is the right thing

[12:27:10] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Because I feel, or I know its prevented me from moving past all my indiscretions

[12:27:12] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: and just moving on

[12:30:09] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: i see...

[12:30:15] Haha, Great Lakes reunion in Washington!!! says: so what do you think of my reading?

[12:30:31] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Its more than fairly accurate

[12:30:42] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: Its dead on

[12:30:53] The boy saw the comet and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away he waited says: I just now need to accomplish what I have set myself out to do

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So..... what do you guys think? All comments are welcome... I hope to be reading some good suggestions/pointers from whoever reads this.

hmmm....

so progress for me has been quite slow lately... dunno why, I guess I just got caught up in watching Torchwood and playing WoW.... I need to find a way to get more motivated again so that I don't lose interest in this stuff like I did back in the day. For those of you who know me (which shouldn't be anyone reading this blog, as I haven't told anyone from back home about it), you all know that I was first "awakened" into this world of the occult and metaphysics back in the 7th grade, in the year 2002. I was but a wee little boy of the age of 12 back then, and one day I stumbled upon the movie "The Craft." It intrigued me so greatly that I went and did a ton of online research because I thought it was so cool. Around that time, I had already begun distancing myself from the Catholic religion that I had been brought up in. It just seemed too robotic, too concrete, too boring for me. It got to a point where I would either refuse to go to church, find an excuse not to go, or go to church to make my parents happy, only to fall asleep in the middle of mass or be bored out of my mind.

I found the concept of Wicca and witchcraft very interesting, so I delved further and further into that world, brining a few friends with me. These friends of mine who joined up with me saw The Craft at around the same time and were also interested in it, so we decided that it was better for us to all stick together on it and share information with each other. Soon, we began casting spells, nothing too intricate, just simple rain chants, glamours, etc. We also begun having dreams, very vivid and colorful dreams about random things. This whole escapade with witchcraft lasted us until about the middle of the school year of 8th grade. The others had said that they had grown out of it. After that, I tried to continue on, but it just didn't feel the same, and I eventually lost interest in it. All that was left of those days were the books that i had bought.

Summer came along and I went to the Philippines for summer vacation. While I was there, I discovered something that revived my interest in these things/brought me further along my growth. My cousin's husband, apparently, was also on a path of enlightenment, and he had been reading up and practicing all kinds of stuff with energy and chi manipulation, astral projection and the like. When I found this out, you can bet I was at their house all the time, always asking questions and wanting to learn more. My nephew was right there with me, always learning, and I remember I was always just a little bit jealous of him because he always seemed to be more advanced than I was. So throughout the summer, I tried to absorb as much from my cousin as I could, and he taught us everything that he could in such a short time. When it was time for me to go back home to Saipan, he gave me a couple of books to read if I was really serious about all this stuff.

When I got back, I started reading some of the books that he had given me, but eventually the rush of freshman year of high school life got to me and I once again drifted away from my path. I got so caught up in high school drama and high school business that I ended up pushing this side of me away for a while. It was on and off for me after that, my interest in the occult usually being re-sparked by me occasionally finding old stuff that I used to read or practice. Now, 7 years later, I am more determined than ever to further myself and my spirituality. I am much more mature now, and hopefully much more able to concentrate on these things. This time around of me rediscovering this path, I have already made significant progress. Back in the day, I could never meditate because I just would never be able to clear my mind; I'd always get distracted and let my mind wanter off because I didn't really know how to control my thoughts yet. While I do not know 100% how to control my thoughts, I most definitely can meditate now and I can also bring myself back to center when I find my mind straying away. It's great.

I choose to follow the path of shamanic practice because I believe it's what my ancestors and my family have been practicing for quite some time. For some reason, though, it stopped with my mother and father's generation. As far as I know, my family has had at least one person on each side (my mother's side and my father's side) set on a spiritual/shamanic path. When it came down to my parents' generation, however, it stopped. Before my mother and her sisters decided not to continue the line, her mother, grandmother, and great grandmother had all been popular practicing midwives back in the day. When I was a kid, I would remember that my father's cousin would always be making these little agimats (not too sure what the translation is in english, I think it's amulet?) for us to attach to the waistband of our shorts/pants to protect us from "something." That's all she ever explained, was that it was to protect us from "something." Of course, back then I just accepted it because I had no idea what was going on. Looking back on it now, however, I realize that she was on this path as well. For as long as I can remember, though my dad doesn't practice anything (as far as I know, that is), he has always been reading books about metaphysical topics and stuff like that. For whatever reason, the family's spiritual line skipped a generation and ended up calling out to me. While I don't mind this, I just wish that my parents could have continued with their family traditions... It would have made it a lot easier on me, you know?

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to get back to reading my book.