Dream 29July2012

I don't really remember everything, but this is what I can recall right now: I was in this dream with these three people that I supposedly know, and we were all working for this one rich dude at his house. At one point all but one of us decides to leave and walk around town for a bit. We end up walking past the house sometime during our walk, and the other dude who stayed behind said something to us about the rich dude, and we all laughed at him and said something like "You actually believe that you're really working for him?" He didn't respond, though. We kept walking around town some more, but that's all that I can remember.

Weird Dream.

I was with this guy who was my best friend in the dream (I don't actually know him in real life), and we were with these 3 other guys and 2 girls. We were in this hotel and a lot of things were happening. The part I remember is that my best friend was like going out with one of the girls, but then they had some sort of disagreement so they went their separate ways for a while, and during that time the other girl swooped in and tried to go out with my best friend, but he wasn't having it. So the first girl was up in her hotel room, and the second girl left. Me and the guys were walking around the place and we got to the actual hotel grounds and discovered that there was this alien artifact thing in the middle of the field that would freeze anyone who touched it if they didn't know how to control it. One of our friends knew how to control it, and there was this huge alien thing about to chase after us so we were running around trying to avoid it while at the same time trying to grab the artifact. Eventually our friend grabbed the artifact and threw it away from us, in the direction of the alien thing. It got distracted by it and touched it, which caused it to start freezing. As it was freezing, we all ran into the hotel building and went into the elevator.

As we were going up the elevator, I checked my Facebook and saw that my sister had uploaded a bunch of new pics from the party that she was at. A lot of them were the kind of pictures a big brother never wants to see coming from his little sister, so I just put my phone away. When we got up to the girl's room, she joined us and we were going back down the elevator and talking about a bunch of stuff, and she said something about not wanting to go out with my best friend for now, so that he could spend more time with his REAL girlfriend, and she was referring to me. He and I were objecting to it but she kept joking around about it and eventually our friends all joined her. And then I woke up.

Weird.

In the midst of having family problems, I dreamt of my family last night.

So I just woke up from a 12 hour sleeping session, and I had all sorts of dreams last night but the only one I can remember now is the most recent one that I had before I finally woke up. I was walking around with my uncle (who isn't really my uncle in real life and I have no idea who he is) in like this foresty area and we were looking for some sort of hidden treasure or something like that. So we go through all these trails in the woods and find nothing, so we go back up to the main open area. Later on we meet up with my family and somehow we all decide to go looking for this thing together, so we hop in the car and drive all the way over to the area where we can park and get out and explore on foot. On the way there, my uncle gives us these weird glowing lollipop looking things that he says will change color from green to pink when we're close to the treasure. I immediately start eating it on the way over there. After some driving, we come across traffic, and we later find out that it is caused by a checkpoint. So we get all nervous for some reason that we might get stopped, but we end up being able to drive throughout he checkpoint with no problems. We continue driving for a while after that, and I am keeping my eyes on the road to let them know when we're close to the parking area (somehow I remember where it is, perhaps from a previous dream?). We keep driving, and eventually we pass by the parking area and I tell them that if we don't see a parking area real soon then we just passed the place we were supposed to park at. So we keep driving but never see a parking area, but we keep driving anyway and eventually find one and park there. I tell them that it's going to be so much longer of a walk to find the hiking area now that we're so far away, but they all seem to be ok with that. So we start the long trek over to the hidden trails where we need to go to find the treasure, and after a while we get to the right place and set off on the trails. I wake up before we're able to find anything.

Another prison-related dream? Wtf?

So last night I dreamt about something that was loosely related to prison. I was with this group of people planning out a resistance movement and it was in the same general area of the prison that was in my previous two dreams. So anyway, the group goes ahead to organize something while I stand guard outside our vehicle, and then all of a sudden, this guard spots me and tries to chase me down, so I start running away from him, but then in my attempts to run away, I end up running straight into this building where a lot more guards are. They all surround me and try to capture me, but I pull out all the stops and use all my might to break free of their grasp. I break free once, but after a few second they grab hold of me again and I am too tired to fight any longer, so they end up capturing me. They take me to the edge of the building before the steps going down and just hold me there for a while. After a few moments, they just let me go and tell me nothing. So I am thinking that I'm a free man already and that I got off scott free, but as I re-enter the building, I'm walking around and I see this girl that I know in the dream. She's wearing navy dress whites and I approach her to try and talk to her, but she just looks the other way, kinda trying to say something like "don't talk to me, I don't ever want to see you again" or something like that. So I just go up to her and say something like "I just wanted to apologize, ok?" So then she looks in my direction and says "ok go." And then I proceed to apologize for the way I've been acting, how I've been resisting authority and embarrassing her basically…and some guy comes up in the open stage-like area next to us, and starts talking and singing or something, and she looks over and says "oh my god is that the Navigators?!?" And I look over and say "the Wayseers you mean?" And she says "Oh yeah, that." So after this distraction I then I tell her how happy I am that nothing bad is gonna happen to me and how they just let me go. That's when she looks at her friend and they whisper something to each other and then she looks at me and tells me that she thinks they're still going to come get me and put me in restraints to take me away somewhere. I ask what's next after that but she doesn't answer and instead changes the subject with her friend and starts talking about navy sweats (the PT gear). I start walking away, and before I can get to the front door to leave the building, I wake up.

Dreaming of going to prison...

So last night I dreamt that I had to go away to prison….odd. I was in a van with my dad and some other dudes, two others were going to prison as well and another dude was an escort…and inside the van there were a lot of food from Saipan that I had to try to finish before we got to prison, so I was trying to do just that as soon as possible. Apparently someone was filming the whole thing, but the dude sitting in the row behind me didn't want to be seen on camera so he got upset and said in a rude way not to film him. Anyway, we got to the prison complex, but my dad didn't want to part with me quite yet so we took a detour and went to the beach instead after they dropped off the other guys. So he let me down at the beach and told me to walk around for a while. As I walked around on the beach I was trying to open this piece of paper that supposedly had this message for me which was written by someone 10,000 years ago but it was written specifically for me. It was taking me forever, so my admission into the prison was delayed for a while. Finally I got to my dad again and as he was trying to arrange my entry I was on my iPhone trying to get a hold of someone on Facebook to get them to announce on my page that I would be going on a year-long break from Facebook in order to focus on school and political activism for a while. The attendant at the window was saying that because I got there so late they had nowhere I could stay the night, so I would probably have to go back home for the night and then just come back tomorrow. She was just waiting on word from her boss if she could let us do that. I woke up before we got the final word that I could go home for the night.

Prison Break.

So last night my dream was all over the place and only one person I know personally was in it, and two famous people were in it. Anyway, the dream starts out with me in prison with my friend Ivy, and I promise her that I'm going to get us out of there…she's hesitant at first, but I convince her that we have to get out or we'll get killed because they're slowly killing us off in there. So anyway, the big day comes and we break out of prison, and we're running far, far away, but then somehow I look around and realize that we're suddenly running around on my home island of Saipan….(of course this doesn't strike me as weird enough in my dream for me to partially wake up into a lucid dream, unfortunately) so she points at this building in the distance which I recognize to be Aquarius Beach Tower, and she tells me that her boyfriend knows about our prison break and that he's waiting for her in there. So we go ahead and head on toward the hotel, and along the way we pass by this touristy area and there's a stage of sorts in it, and a decent crowd is gathered and out of the crowd I spot who I think is Stefan from Dada Life. I pass it off at first and think to myself that there's no way it could be him because he would never be on Saipan…. but then as we keep on walking, I keep looking at the area and suddenly realize that it really IS him, and Olle is there too so the whole Dada Life is there, and I start to get real excited and I tell Ivy that we need to stop for a while because my favorite DJs are right there and I need to stop and talk to them. Ivy says she's in a hurry to get to her boyfriend because he'll start to worry if she takes too long to get to him, so she goes on ahead without me. I go down into the stage area where everyone is gathered and stumble upon a bunch of people wearing Digi10ve shirts and holding Digi10ve stickers and they're all shooting the shit with Stefan. I say what's up to Stefan and start talking to him and the other people who are wearing Digi10ve shirts. A few minutes into my conversation, I wake up.

I dream of old-school war…and I mean REAL old.

I had a dream yesterday that I was fighting in the war, and one of the battles was in an airport…. but we were fighting with old school weapons, like swords and shields and bows and arrows… and in one scene we had to go up a ramp but there were enemy archers firing at us, so we had to use our shields in a phalanx formation to fend off the arrows…. and after the barrage of arrows was done, we moved forward in full force and attacked the enemy with no mercy. When I got to my last kill, the last enemy soldier on the battlefield, he was a young black man and seemed very scared, so instead of killing him I put him in a choke hold and explained to him that I wasn't gonna kill him but he would pass out and he could go home to his family after this was all over. So after that we won the war and it was declared over and we could all go home. Everyone was celebrating, and we all went down the ramp to the exit of the airport. I went through the doors but my family wasn't there, so I kept on walking…after a while I realized that I had left my stuff inside the airport near the battlefield, so I ran back inside and went all the way up to the TSA terminal and explained to them my situation. They said I could go look for it but when I came back I had to leave it with them to examine it thoroughly before they could release it to me. So I said ok, but then I woke up.

Gotta get at least one more entry in before the year ends...

WOW it's been a while since I last wrote anything in here. Sorry bout that, got caught up in the problems of this physical plane… and I also slipped into this deep depression that I am still fighting off to this day (it comes on and off every now and then). Anyway, I've been in a total disconnect with my spiritual side, and it's kinda bugging me as of late, so I picked up a copy of

Mastering Astral Projection last week and I'm going to use that as my platform to get back into the spiritual side of things…. I figure once I perfect astral projection and am able to go anywhere and learn anything, I will be much more connected to the spiritual side of life and I'll be more equipped to deal with the problems of this physical existence.   I am still aiming to create a political ideology of some sort that successfully combines spirituality with concepts from this physical plane in order to form a more perfect world…it's a long shot, I know, but I figure it's still worth a try, eh? I'm also going to be trying out the Ganzfeld Experiment at some point, so I'll let you all know how that goes as well. Anyway, with this year coming to a close, it's important for me to note that a lot has happened and many things have changed in my life this year, some for the worse and some for the better… but as they say, everything happens for a reason, and there are a lot of awesome people I am good friends with today whom I probably never would have crossed paths with had some of the darker times in my life never happened this year. It's a little cliché of me to say, but I wouldn't change any of it for the world. So here's to a roller coaster year of growth and development…. and here's looking to a new year, the year that will change EVERYTHING. 2012, here I come…..

It's been quite a while...but I am back from my hermitage.

That's right, I've been away on a little hermitage the past year, but now I am back. I have spent all this time taking a step back and looking at the world through a different point of view. I have grown exponentially in terms of spirituality over the past year, and I am ever smarter in terms of my occult knowledge. I continue to grow on my path in life and every day I learn something new or am made aware of another aspect of spirituality. Recently, I have been reading up on voodoo and hoodoo, and casting my own little spells. I also finally have a nice little herb cabinet sort of thing with some common herbs and some not so common herbs (like rose hips, dittany of crete, dogbane, and a few others). I've also begun planting, and a couple of my plants have died, but it was to be expected. So far, though, I have a gorwing DIttany of Crete plant, a growing White Sage plant, a growing Belladonna plant, a growing Creeping Rosemary plant, and two growing Salvia Divinorum plants. I recently planted a LOT of Lavender plants, and I guess we'll see where that goes. The ones that I am the most excited about, though, are obviously my two Salvia Divinorum plants. I cannot wait till they are fully grown and ready to be harvested..... oh man, I am going to have soooo much fun. Thank you for reading, this is all for now.

My very first Pagan House Social.... sort of.

So tomorrow, Pagan House, with the exception of myself, will be traveling up to Keeler for the weekend to pick a shitload of sage for Heartland... and they have entrusted me with facilitating the Pagan House Social, so that is just what I will be doing tomorrow night. It's quite exciting for me, because they even gave me the green Pagan House shirt to wear! Yeah it's pretty geeky of me to get excited over that but what can I say, it truly is quite an honor. :) I'm not quite sure about how the attendance is going to look tomorrow, but I am hoping for the best. So far no one has really RSVP'd yes for the event on the meetup groups, but I guess we'll see how it all turns out tomorrow...

Yet another long overdue update...

So I'm having a real problem with updating regularly.... I suppose that's why I don't have too many visitors to the blog these days.... but oh well, it'll happen.... in time. So a lot has definitely happened since my last post; I'll try to sum it all up here in as short a post as possible.

So I suppose the first thing to talk about is my initiation into the first degree of the Pagan House way. It was very empowering; I felt amazing all throughout the ritual, and I found a very peaceful feeling during the call of the ancestors part. It was even cooler because they had us, the students, build the altar and cast the circle. Everything about it was just great, and I loved the rush that I got from it all. The whole thing ended with some devastating news, however, which I am not at liberty to discuss on here.... but it truly broke my heart while at the same time making me proud that such a great opportunity presented itself. So anyway, Morgan said that during the call of the ancestors, she saw that my ancestors were big islander looking folk, wearing long tan-brown papery looking skirts with black designs on them, and holding sticks that looked like they were used for paddling... The men were all tall and strong, while the women kind of kept quiet. Interesting, noh? Ever since then I've been trying to find a little bit of time every day to kind of do some research to see if I can find what kind of tribal people had that kind of outfit.... no luck yet though.

Secondly, I was supposed to lead a New Moon ritual a few weeks ago, but that ended up not happening because my schedule had been changed and I had to be at work at the time the ritual would have been going on. Everyone was really excited for me to be doing the ritual, and I was excited myself, however I did not feel that I was truly ready for such a daunting task just yet. So I suppose that worked out for me, even if everyone (including myself) was kinda bummed out about the sudden turn of events. My new schedule also prevented me from going to my year and a day classes, so that was a HUGE disappointment for me. However, My beloved High Priest and High Priestess at Pagan House did all that they could to see if they could work something out for me with my command or with the chaplain... And while they were not so successful on that front, my schedule suddenly changed, outta the blue, back to my normal day check hours... so it's interesting how things just work out for me lately...

I think the best part of this update is right here, however. Over the last couple of days, I have done three Full Moon Rituals; the first one being a skyclad one up in Carlsbad, the second one being a regular one in Mission Bay, and the third one being a smaller one at Balboa park. The reason this is important for me to mention is that in all three rituals, I played an integral part in the ritual. For the first two, I casted the circle. The first one was actually a surprise to me; I was told that I would be doing it at the second one, so that was the one I had prepared for. But my lovely teacher Morgan had the surprise planned out for me, I suppose. According to the people's feedback from that first night, I did great, so I'll take it as it is. The second one went much better; I received a lot more feedback, so I'm feeling a lot more confident about this. In the third one, I was asked to be the God for the night, so I accepted because at the time they had asked I was the only guy there. After that ritual, they had told me that I did wonderful for a first timer. lol. So anyway, I guess the point of this all is that I am growing more and more into my personal power and it excites me! Looking back on the past six months that I have been here in San Diego, it's just amazing to see how far I've come and how much I've grown on this path... Back then I definitely never would have thought that I would be casting circles at this point! And I have my wonderful teachers of my two classes: Aaron and Morgan Taggert of Pagan House and Carrie Hammond of Indigo Paths, to thank for that. I can't wait to see just what the rest of the year brings to me and how much more I grow!

Announcing a new Meetup Group: The San Diego County Warrior Circle!

So I posted the following message to a few of my Meetup groups announcing a new group that I have created for the military pagans in San DIego County. If this thing is successful and grows big enough, I might even have the Warrior Circle thing expand to other bases... it's part of the dream but a much later part, if you know what I mean. First I have to get this thing going.

"In light of the recent events that took place earlier this month at the US Air Force Academy, I have decided that now was the proper time for me to set my plans in motion and I created a new meetup group called San Diego County Warrior Circle. This is a pagan group for military servicemembers. Our goals are many, but the main one is to provide a stable community for pagan servicemembers. We are here to educate those new to the faith or those who are just curious about the things that we do. We are here to make sure that people know their rights when it comes to the military and religious practice and worship. If you are in the military, please join, and tell your other pagan or pagan-curious friends who are also serving. If you aren't in the military, but know someone who is, please invite them to check out this group. This is my dream and I would like to see it grow into something big, but I need your help to do it."

So there you have it, my latest update... Things are really starting to look up for me again, and I am so happy about that. I have Owls class tonight up at the Pagan House in Carlsbad, and every second spent up there is just an amazing time. I love being up there and basking in the energy of the place.

My Vision for the Military Pagans, and some exciting updates!

So, I have my own little Pagan House vision, but then I also have my own personal vision..... and it is all about the military, since I am serving on active duty in the military and all that. So anyway, in my last journal entry over on The Pagan House blog I had answered a question about what I planned to do with the knowledge that I gain from taking the Owls class. In my response, I mentioned something about sharing my knowledge with other military servicemembers I said, "One of my dreams is to be able to teach other military service members who are new to the path or who are just curious about it. I want to be their walking, talking Pagan encyclopedia and aid in their spiritual growth and development."

This is me expanding on that sentence and going into my actual vision for pagans in the military. Someday soon, I'd like to organize a group on base (I'll start out with just people on base, and if things go well I will expand to all servicemembers in the area [San Diego County]...) that would come together at an agreed frequency to perform rituals with a military tone to them; kinda like a military coven, I suppose. However, the group would be so much more than just that. The main purpose of the group will be to provide military servicemembers with a community in which to exchange knowledge, ideas, information, and resources. Whether it be teaching curious servicemembers about the pagan spiritual path, or even teaching established pagans about certain things that they do not know yet or have not heard of, one of the main goals of the group will be to exchange information within the community. One of our goals within this would be to set up classes every now and then covering a vast array of topics, such as circle casting, calling the corners, making smudge bundles, how to build and use an altar that complies with barracks regulations, etc. I am currently reading a book called "Faith and Magick in the Armed Forces: A Handbook for Pagans in the Military" by Stefani E. Barner, and one of the things that I want to do with the knowledge that I get from the Owls class and the information that I will gain from reading this book and doing other personal research is to kind of act as an unofficial pagan chaplain for the group. By that point, I should be able to answer most questions involving pagan life in the military (like rights to worship, getting time off to be able to go to rituals, etc.). My services should suffice until the day that an official pagan chaplain comes into the armed forces.

So there you have it, my grand vision for the military pagans out there... On to the exciting updates lol.

So last post that I made, I completely forgot to mention that I CAN FINALLY SEE AURAS. It's still in its infancy stages right now, so I don't see any color yet... But I can definitely see an energy field around a person's physical body. I think it might have been awakened that time that I saw Maureen's shield (in fact, maybe it wasn't her shield that I was seeing, but her aura!)...So anyway, that's big update #1... Big update #2 is that I performed my first act of Reiki healing last night! It felt amazing while I was doing it, and Jennifer said that my hands and her foot were really hot (so yay, I did it right [or just for the Pagan House, "I wasn't doing it wrong!!] lol). I ended up being REALLY hungry after that, and it got real bad on the drive home... which stuck me as funny since I had already eaten like 4 times at The Pagan House that night!

BIG update

So I haven't posted anything on here in a while, sorry but the mundane life took hold of me for a while.... There are a lot of things to talk about but I will try to keep it as brief as possible. First of all, I am now taking two year-and-a-day classes. The first one with Carrie Hammond of Indigo Paths up in Oceanside, and the second one with Aaron and Morgan Taggert of The Pagan House up in Carlsbad. I don't have a car, though, so transportation to and from classes is my biggest problem. Or so I thought. At first I thought that maybe I was overloading myself or that I should ease up on it a little bit, but then I looked at the situation and I realized that there was a HUGE sign that I was right were I was supposed to be, and that I really am on the right track with taking both of these classes right now. Somehow transportation isn't really as big of a problem as I thought it would be, because I always manage to find a ride to classes and then back to where ever it is that I need to be. If that ain't a sign, I don't know what is, lol. I also finally answered the call of Reiki. It's something that has been calling out to me for the past couple of years, but I have never really had any resources or teachers around to teach me. Now I'm down in San Diego county where there pagan community is just overflowing with Reiki practitioners and Reiki masters who are excellent teachers. I am learning Blue Fire Reiki with Carrie Hammond, again of Indigo Paths. These are all great people and I am just really excited about everything that I am learning about in all these classes. I'll be part of the priesthood in no time, lol.

Which brings me to my next topic of discussion, the pagan priesthood/pagan clergy life. That is definitely a goal of mine, not just so I cam walk around saying that I am a 21 year old high priest or whatever, but so that I can use my knowledge and title to help others in the military. I want to study anything written about rules and regulations for worship and religious activities, etc and be able to answer any questions about it when other military servicemembers come up to me with questions or complaints that they were not let off of work to go to rituals or whatever. Kind of like a Chaplain, I suppose. I want to unite the military pagan community, first here on base at MCAS Miramar, and then in the entire San Diego county. Because I know there are others out there who have questions and concerns related to issues at work that deal with their pagan path. There are chaplains available for these generally, however I'm sure there are many people out there who just aren't comfortable talking to chaplains because of the religious differences. The only reason I feel comfortable talking to chaplains when I need to is because I was raised in a Catholic environment, and I was once Catholic myself. So there you have it, my vision for the future of military paganism.

Another big deal that recently happened is that I recently finally built my altar in my barracks room. Shocker, ain't it. Who would've thought that it would ever be possible to set up a functional altar inside a military barracks room, where generally you cannot have anything burning in there? I had been holding back on building my altar for the longest time because of that reason in particular, however my teachers at The Pagan House made me realize that using the flameless electric powered candles isn't so bad. Basically, it's all about the intent and purpose so if you use those things intending for them to be representative of the actual flame and wax candles, then they will be as such. So I took all the extra effort to even wrap each candle in tissue paper to match the color correspondences of the elements. I was really excited to see the final results. In addition to the intent, though, my teachers also pointed out that technically speaking, electricity represents fire anyway so it would be alright.

So there you have it, my big update. I was going to write a lot more, but it's 0343 and I'm really sleepy so I will have to continue some other time.

The most intense meditation session I have ever had!

So I completely forgot to blog about this, but it's been on my mind since it happened so now that I finally have the time to do it, I am blogging it.

The morning after the NMR and my shamanic journey, I woke up and after eating breakfast I went into the temple to meditate. Almost immediately after closing my eyes, I was transported to my sacred space, the place I go to every time I meditate. It's a grassy knoll type of area, but this time I saw it eventually connecting to a beach and the ocean. When I got there, I was immediately greeted by my wolf totem/guide and without even saying a word I transformed into a wolf and let out a loud howl. Before I knew it, many other howls were going off in the distance, and eventually I was surrounded by a pack of wolves, including my totem wolf. We then immediately proceeded to running. We ran and ran, over the grassy knoll and through the open fields of grass, running and running until we got to the border of the forest entrance. We proceeded to enter the forest, running through it just like we were running through the open fields. After running for a while, we came upon a circular clearing, and in the clearing was a deer with the most majestic antlers I had ever seen. After observing it for a while, I decided to move in on it and attack. I initiated the attack, and after I got the first few bites and rips in, I called the rest of the pack in to feast upon this glorious meal. they proceeded to rip and tear at the deer's flesh and meat with their mouths, and we were all getting saturated with deer blood, and I let out a loud howl, which was soon followed by everyone else. After the feast, we went back to the grassy knoll area and then it was time for me to go home.

Very interesting, indeed. So intense, too. I could feel the wind rushing against my fur, the ground hitting my paws with each stride, and the feeling of the deer's flesh in my mouth as my teeth dug into it. It all felt very real and exciting; I almost didn't want to leave!

My very first shamanic journey

The following is my recollection of my very first shamanic journey that I experienced during a New Moon Ritual at The Village Witch in San Diego, CA. It's quite interesting.



Shamanic Journey @ The Village Witch

New Moon Ritual

01/15/10



Falling into a hole as the drumming starts, then I end up in a cave with a river flowing upward. A man with a crocodile head is there with his mouth open and water gushing out of his mouth into the river. He points out in the distance and I see a Viking like ship coming up the river. I try to follow it up the river but they tell me that I can't follow them. So I start to go back down and I step into the river but as soon as I step into the river I get caught in a downward current (even though the river flows upward). My whole body gets submerged underwater as I travel downwards on the river, and I feel as if I'm trying to fight the current. Eventually I go over a waterfall and plunge another good distance downward into a larger body of water. As I plunge into the water, I try to swim up but I feel hundreds of hands pushing me down even further, so I plunge further down into the depths of the water. Then I see a city inside a bubble on the ocean floor below me. The hands push me through the bubble and I am suddenly dry inside the city. I see people wearing long silver robes walking around and machines that are flying through the air like hovercrafts. In the distance I see a grand pyramid that seemed like it was at the heart of the city. A man approaches me and has a conversation with me. He welcomes me back and starts telling me things about the place. I then point to the pyramid and ask what it was for. He told me that was where the focused their energy and concentration so that they could call the gods. We had more conversation, and then he told me it was time to go further down. He then pushed me lightly into the ground and I felt myself get sucked up by the ground and then I plummeted further down through the earth. I eventually hit land again and everything is pitch black. Then a blue flame goes on in the distance and I san faintly see another crocodile man. I walk closer to it and he points to somewhere in the distance, so I assumed that's where I was supposed to go. As I walked over there, I fell int a hole and I plummeted further down into the earth. I hit ground again and once again it's pitch black. In the distance an orange flame comes on and I walk closer expecting to see another crocodile man but instead I am greeted by a being who was similar to the crocodile men but instead had the head of a deer. He pointed to an opening in the distance where a light was resonating. So i walk over there and my totem wolf was there ad he told me it was time to return to my body. He said to hold on to him and I could ride him all the way up. So I grabbed hold of him and we begin going back up, back up through the tunnels, up through the caves, and then we hig water again and we travel upwards through the water. We keep going up, we go up the waterfall and then back up the river. We go back to the initial cave and then back up the hole i descended from and then we were back in the temple. I thanked my wolf and he left after that. I was in my body again and the drumming started up again and I fell back into trance and I felt myself going down through the hole again. This time though, instead of hitting the ground I was launched through the hole and I was back in the temple for a second but my body kept shooting up past the temple and I looked down as I rose upwards and into space. I see the earth beneath my feet and I look around into the vast nothingness of space. Then I see the Viking-like ship again and it is being driven by bird-like men. They had bodies of man but on their arms they also had wings, and they all had the head of a bird. I tried to follow them again but they said no to me again because they were going to the valley of the gods and I could not go there yet. Then the callback drumming starts and I feel myself descending back onto the earth, going down, down, down until I am back at the temple and inside my body. Then the journey ended.

My progress so far...

So I have made a lot of progress in the past couple of months.... I've attended a bunch of rituals, raised a bunch of energy, and am now able to focus inward a lot better during meditation..... lately though, like in the past week or so, I've been kinda getting a calling to do some kind of magickal work.... I don't really know what it is just yet, all I know is that it's calling out to me and I'm supposed to do something about it. I'm really excited about the direction that my life is going in now, and it can really only get better from here. I am opening myself up to the mysteries and wonders of the Universe and Life. I recently registered for classes under a formal teacher, Carrie of Indigo Paths. and I am really excited to get the ball rolling on this part of my life. Valera recommended her to me so I sought her out, and now I am a student in her Basic Witchcraft class which starts on the 17th and lasts for 14 weeks! I can't wait to learn everything that she has to teach.... I am REALLY, REALLY excited for this!!

Animal speak?!?

So I was over at my buddy AJ's house on Sunday partying it up and stuff, and at one point that night their dog was making a lot of noise in its kennel so I went up and let it go outside for a while.... after a few minutes it started scratching at the door so I went over and let it back in... it proceeded to running around the house, and I tried multiple times to get it to go back into its kennel but it would always just run right back around me... so finally I waited for it to come back near me, and I closed my eyes and found my quiet space and reached out to it and asked it to just make things easier for me and get into its kennel.... and when I opened my eyes, he walked right into his kennel without me even signaling for him to do so.

....so I guess my question is.... weird coincidence, or an actual account of psychic communication with animals?? Thoughts/opinions on this little episode?

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So another thing just came up.... I was going over my dream journal and I realized that the past few dreams that I have had have had some common symbols.... they are: the ocean/sea, family/friends, a house, and pizza. Yes, pizza. lol. Do any of you who are good at dream interpretations have any thoughts on these recurring symbols?? You can click on that link above (the dream journal link) if you want to read the whole dreams (which you are also welcome to interpret, of course).

Full Moon Ritual. Again! =)

So tonight I went to another Full Moon Ritual, but it was with a different group of people. It was awesome! I had lots of fun; maybe even more fun than I had yesterday... but let's not go there, lol I'll just say that I had a great time at both rituals. This kind of stuff is really what I need, you know? This entire time I've been doing stuff on my own and experiencing this path without anyone to talk to about it and teach me anything... and now I have a whole San Diego full of pagans to talk to for experience and advice! This is awesome! During the grounding part of tonight's ritual, somehow I was able to always be a step ahead of the narration, even though I had never done a grounding before that.... kinda weird, huh?

wonderful.

So i just got back home from a Full Moon Ritual with a bunch of pagans in San Diego County... it was awesome. I loved it. It was my first ritual and I didn't quite know what to expect, but it was so much fun! The people were great and everyone was so friendly and I just loved it all. It was a wonderful experience. I can't wait for more meetups with the pagans in the area. I had a wonderful conversation with the high priestess of the ceremony afterwards and she shared many enlightening things about life and stuff and she said that she had sensed that there was an archangel working with me.... I figure that it's Metatron, because of that one period of time when I would always see his name all over the place. But anyway....this is exactly what I have been looking for to help complete my pagan experience... this is just the bit of motivation that I need to keep on going with my pagan studies and spiritual growth... so I plan on doing more of these and learning a lot more.

on another note, in dealing with synchronicity, for some odd reason that I do not quite know yet, lately gay stuff has been popping up around me.... i mean just very recently. like in the past two days it seems like the whole world is screaming gay at me lol. i don't quite understand why but it seems like no matter where I go, there always seems to be something gay that shows up or happens...hmmm. i wonder what it all means. any thoughts, folks?