Prison Break.

So last night my dream was all over the place and only one person I know personally was in it, and two famous people were in it. Anyway, the dream starts out with me in prison with my friend Ivy, and I promise her that I'm going to get us out of there…she's hesitant at first, but I convince her that we have to get out or we'll get killed because they're slowly killing us off in there. So anyway, the big day comes and we break out of prison, and we're running far, far away, but then somehow I look around and realize that we're suddenly running around on my home island of Saipan….(of course this doesn't strike me as weird enough in my dream for me to partially wake up into a lucid dream, unfortunately) so she points at this building in the distance which I recognize to be Aquarius Beach Tower, and she tells me that her boyfriend knows about our prison break and that he's waiting for her in there. So we go ahead and head on toward the hotel, and along the way we pass by this touristy area and there's a stage of sorts in it, and a decent crowd is gathered and out of the crowd I spot who I think is Stefan from Dada Life. I pass it off at first and think to myself that there's no way it could be him because he would never be on Saipan…. but then as we keep on walking, I keep looking at the area and suddenly realize that it really IS him, and Olle is there too so the whole Dada Life is there, and I start to get real excited and I tell Ivy that we need to stop for a while because my favorite DJs are right there and I need to stop and talk to them. Ivy says she's in a hurry to get to her boyfriend because he'll start to worry if she takes too long to get to him, so she goes on ahead without me. I go down into the stage area where everyone is gathered and stumble upon a bunch of people wearing Digi10ve shirts and holding Digi10ve stickers and they're all shooting the shit with Stefan. I say what's up to Stefan and start talking to him and the other people who are wearing Digi10ve shirts. A few minutes into my conversation, I wake up.

I dream of old-school war…and I mean REAL old.

I had a dream yesterday that I was fighting in the war, and one of the battles was in an airport…. but we were fighting with old school weapons, like swords and shields and bows and arrows… and in one scene we had to go up a ramp but there were enemy archers firing at us, so we had to use our shields in a phalanx formation to fend off the arrows…. and after the barrage of arrows was done, we moved forward in full force and attacked the enemy with no mercy. When I got to my last kill, the last enemy soldier on the battlefield, he was a young black man and seemed very scared, so instead of killing him I put him in a choke hold and explained to him that I wasn't gonna kill him but he would pass out and he could go home to his family after this was all over. So after that we won the war and it was declared over and we could all go home. Everyone was celebrating, and we all went down the ramp to the exit of the airport. I went through the doors but my family wasn't there, so I kept on walking…after a while I realized that I had left my stuff inside the airport near the battlefield, so I ran back inside and went all the way up to the TSA terminal and explained to them my situation. They said I could go look for it but when I came back I had to leave it with them to examine it thoroughly before they could release it to me. So I said ok, but then I woke up.

Gotta get at least one more entry in before the year ends...

WOW it's been a while since I last wrote anything in here. Sorry bout that, got caught up in the problems of this physical plane… and I also slipped into this deep depression that I am still fighting off to this day (it comes on and off every now and then). Anyway, I've been in a total disconnect with my spiritual side, and it's kinda bugging me as of late, so I picked up a copy of

Mastering Astral Projection last week and I'm going to use that as my platform to get back into the spiritual side of things…. I figure once I perfect astral projection and am able to go anywhere and learn anything, I will be much more connected to the spiritual side of life and I'll be more equipped to deal with the problems of this physical existence.   I am still aiming to create a political ideology of some sort that successfully combines spirituality with concepts from this physical plane in order to form a more perfect world…it's a long shot, I know, but I figure it's still worth a try, eh? I'm also going to be trying out the Ganzfeld Experiment at some point, so I'll let you all know how that goes as well. Anyway, with this year coming to a close, it's important for me to note that a lot has happened and many things have changed in my life this year, some for the worse and some for the better… but as they say, everything happens for a reason, and there are a lot of awesome people I am good friends with today whom I probably never would have crossed paths with had some of the darker times in my life never happened this year. It's a little cliché of me to say, but I wouldn't change any of it for the world. So here's to a roller coaster year of growth and development…. and here's looking to a new year, the year that will change EVERYTHING. 2012, here I come…..

It's been quite a while...but I am back from my hermitage.

That's right, I've been away on a little hermitage the past year, but now I am back. I have spent all this time taking a step back and looking at the world through a different point of view. I have grown exponentially in terms of spirituality over the past year, and I am ever smarter in terms of my occult knowledge. I continue to grow on my path in life and every day I learn something new or am made aware of another aspect of spirituality. Recently, I have been reading up on voodoo and hoodoo, and casting my own little spells. I also finally have a nice little herb cabinet sort of thing with some common herbs and some not so common herbs (like rose hips, dittany of crete, dogbane, and a few others). I've also begun planting, and a couple of my plants have died, but it was to be expected. So far, though, I have a gorwing DIttany of Crete plant, a growing White Sage plant, a growing Belladonna plant, a growing Creeping Rosemary plant, and two growing Salvia Divinorum plants. I recently planted a LOT of Lavender plants, and I guess we'll see where that goes. The ones that I am the most excited about, though, are obviously my two Salvia Divinorum plants. I cannot wait till they are fully grown and ready to be harvested..... oh man, I am going to have soooo much fun. Thank you for reading, this is all for now.

My very first Pagan House Social.... sort of.

So tomorrow, Pagan House, with the exception of myself, will be traveling up to Keeler for the weekend to pick a shitload of sage for Heartland... and they have entrusted me with facilitating the Pagan House Social, so that is just what I will be doing tomorrow night. It's quite exciting for me, because they even gave me the green Pagan House shirt to wear! Yeah it's pretty geeky of me to get excited over that but what can I say, it truly is quite an honor. :) I'm not quite sure about how the attendance is going to look tomorrow, but I am hoping for the best. So far no one has really RSVP'd yes for the event on the meetup groups, but I guess we'll see how it all turns out tomorrow...

Yet another long overdue update...

So I'm having a real problem with updating regularly.... I suppose that's why I don't have too many visitors to the blog these days.... but oh well, it'll happen.... in time. So a lot has definitely happened since my last post; I'll try to sum it all up here in as short a post as possible.

So I suppose the first thing to talk about is my initiation into the first degree of the Pagan House way. It was very empowering; I felt amazing all throughout the ritual, and I found a very peaceful feeling during the call of the ancestors part. It was even cooler because they had us, the students, build the altar and cast the circle. Everything about it was just great, and I loved the rush that I got from it all. The whole thing ended with some devastating news, however, which I am not at liberty to discuss on here.... but it truly broke my heart while at the same time making me proud that such a great opportunity presented itself. So anyway, Morgan said that during the call of the ancestors, she saw that my ancestors were big islander looking folk, wearing long tan-brown papery looking skirts with black designs on them, and holding sticks that looked like they were used for paddling... The men were all tall and strong, while the women kind of kept quiet. Interesting, noh? Ever since then I've been trying to find a little bit of time every day to kind of do some research to see if I can find what kind of tribal people had that kind of outfit.... no luck yet though.

Secondly, I was supposed to lead a New Moon ritual a few weeks ago, but that ended up not happening because my schedule had been changed and I had to be at work at the time the ritual would have been going on. Everyone was really excited for me to be doing the ritual, and I was excited myself, however I did not feel that I was truly ready for such a daunting task just yet. So I suppose that worked out for me, even if everyone (including myself) was kinda bummed out about the sudden turn of events. My new schedule also prevented me from going to my year and a day classes, so that was a HUGE disappointment for me. However, My beloved High Priest and High Priestess at Pagan House did all that they could to see if they could work something out for me with my command or with the chaplain... And while they were not so successful on that front, my schedule suddenly changed, outta the blue, back to my normal day check hours... so it's interesting how things just work out for me lately...

I think the best part of this update is right here, however. Over the last couple of days, I have done three Full Moon Rituals; the first one being a skyclad one up in Carlsbad, the second one being a regular one in Mission Bay, and the third one being a smaller one at Balboa park. The reason this is important for me to mention is that in all three rituals, I played an integral part in the ritual. For the first two, I casted the circle. The first one was actually a surprise to me; I was told that I would be doing it at the second one, so that was the one I had prepared for. But my lovely teacher Morgan had the surprise planned out for me, I suppose. According to the people's feedback from that first night, I did great, so I'll take it as it is. The second one went much better; I received a lot more feedback, so I'm feeling a lot more confident about this. In the third one, I was asked to be the God for the night, so I accepted because at the time they had asked I was the only guy there. After that ritual, they had told me that I did wonderful for a first timer. lol. So anyway, I guess the point of this all is that I am growing more and more into my personal power and it excites me! Looking back on the past six months that I have been here in San Diego, it's just amazing to see how far I've come and how much I've grown on this path... Back then I definitely never would have thought that I would be casting circles at this point! And I have my wonderful teachers of my two classes: Aaron and Morgan Taggert of Pagan House and Carrie Hammond of Indigo Paths, to thank for that. I can't wait to see just what the rest of the year brings to me and how much more I grow!

Announcing a new Meetup Group: The San Diego County Warrior Circle!

So I posted the following message to a few of my Meetup groups announcing a new group that I have created for the military pagans in San DIego County. If this thing is successful and grows big enough, I might even have the Warrior Circle thing expand to other bases... it's part of the dream but a much later part, if you know what I mean. First I have to get this thing going.

"In light of the recent events that took place earlier this month at the US Air Force Academy, I have decided that now was the proper time for me to set my plans in motion and I created a new meetup group called San Diego County Warrior Circle. This is a pagan group for military servicemembers. Our goals are many, but the main one is to provide a stable community for pagan servicemembers. We are here to educate those new to the faith or those who are just curious about the things that we do. We are here to make sure that people know their rights when it comes to the military and religious practice and worship. If you are in the military, please join, and tell your other pagan or pagan-curious friends who are also serving. If you aren't in the military, but know someone who is, please invite them to check out this group. This is my dream and I would like to see it grow into something big, but I need your help to do it."

So there you have it, my latest update... Things are really starting to look up for me again, and I am so happy about that. I have Owls class tonight up at the Pagan House in Carlsbad, and every second spent up there is just an amazing time. I love being up there and basking in the energy of the place.