The most intense meditation session I have ever had!

So I completely forgot to blog about this, but it's been on my mind since it happened so now that I finally have the time to do it, I am blogging it.

The morning after the NMR and my shamanic journey, I woke up and after eating breakfast I went into the temple to meditate. Almost immediately after closing my eyes, I was transported to my sacred space, the place I go to every time I meditate. It's a grassy knoll type of area, but this time I saw it eventually connecting to a beach and the ocean. When I got there, I was immediately greeted by my wolf totem/guide and without even saying a word I transformed into a wolf and let out a loud howl. Before I knew it, many other howls were going off in the distance, and eventually I was surrounded by a pack of wolves, including my totem wolf. We then immediately proceeded to running. We ran and ran, over the grassy knoll and through the open fields of grass, running and running until we got to the border of the forest entrance. We proceeded to enter the forest, running through it just like we were running through the open fields. After running for a while, we came upon a circular clearing, and in the clearing was a deer with the most majestic antlers I had ever seen. After observing it for a while, I decided to move in on it and attack. I initiated the attack, and after I got the first few bites and rips in, I called the rest of the pack in to feast upon this glorious meal. they proceeded to rip and tear at the deer's flesh and meat with their mouths, and we were all getting saturated with deer blood, and I let out a loud howl, which was soon followed by everyone else. After the feast, we went back to the grassy knoll area and then it was time for me to go home.

Very interesting, indeed. So intense, too. I could feel the wind rushing against my fur, the ground hitting my paws with each stride, and the feeling of the deer's flesh in my mouth as my teeth dug into it. It all felt very real and exciting; I almost didn't want to leave!

My very first shamanic journey

The following is my recollection of my very first shamanic journey that I experienced during a New Moon Ritual at The Village Witch in San Diego, CA. It's quite interesting.



Shamanic Journey @ The Village Witch

New Moon Ritual

01/15/10



Falling into a hole as the drumming starts, then I end up in a cave with a river flowing upward. A man with a crocodile head is there with his mouth open and water gushing out of his mouth into the river. He points out in the distance and I see a Viking like ship coming up the river. I try to follow it up the river but they tell me that I can't follow them. So I start to go back down and I step into the river but as soon as I step into the river I get caught in a downward current (even though the river flows upward). My whole body gets submerged underwater as I travel downwards on the river, and I feel as if I'm trying to fight the current. Eventually I go over a waterfall and plunge another good distance downward into a larger body of water. As I plunge into the water, I try to swim up but I feel hundreds of hands pushing me down even further, so I plunge further down into the depths of the water. Then I see a city inside a bubble on the ocean floor below me. The hands push me through the bubble and I am suddenly dry inside the city. I see people wearing long silver robes walking around and machines that are flying through the air like hovercrafts. In the distance I see a grand pyramid that seemed like it was at the heart of the city. A man approaches me and has a conversation with me. He welcomes me back and starts telling me things about the place. I then point to the pyramid and ask what it was for. He told me that was where the focused their energy and concentration so that they could call the gods. We had more conversation, and then he told me it was time to go further down. He then pushed me lightly into the ground and I felt myself get sucked up by the ground and then I plummeted further down through the earth. I eventually hit land again and everything is pitch black. Then a blue flame goes on in the distance and I san faintly see another crocodile man. I walk closer to it and he points to somewhere in the distance, so I assumed that's where I was supposed to go. As I walked over there, I fell int a hole and I plummeted further down into the earth. I hit ground again and once again it's pitch black. In the distance an orange flame comes on and I walk closer expecting to see another crocodile man but instead I am greeted by a being who was similar to the crocodile men but instead had the head of a deer. He pointed to an opening in the distance where a light was resonating. So i walk over there and my totem wolf was there ad he told me it was time to return to my body. He said to hold on to him and I could ride him all the way up. So I grabbed hold of him and we begin going back up, back up through the tunnels, up through the caves, and then we hig water again and we travel upwards through the water. We keep going up, we go up the waterfall and then back up the river. We go back to the initial cave and then back up the hole i descended from and then we were back in the temple. I thanked my wolf and he left after that. I was in my body again and the drumming started up again and I fell back into trance and I felt myself going down through the hole again. This time though, instead of hitting the ground I was launched through the hole and I was back in the temple for a second but my body kept shooting up past the temple and I looked down as I rose upwards and into space. I see the earth beneath my feet and I look around into the vast nothingness of space. Then I see the Viking-like ship again and it is being driven by bird-like men. They had bodies of man but on their arms they also had wings, and they all had the head of a bird. I tried to follow them again but they said no to me again because they were going to the valley of the gods and I could not go there yet. Then the callback drumming starts and I feel myself descending back onto the earth, going down, down, down until I am back at the temple and inside my body. Then the journey ended.

My progress so far...

So I have made a lot of progress in the past couple of months.... I've attended a bunch of rituals, raised a bunch of energy, and am now able to focus inward a lot better during meditation..... lately though, like in the past week or so, I've been kinda getting a calling to do some kind of magickal work.... I don't really know what it is just yet, all I know is that it's calling out to me and I'm supposed to do something about it. I'm really excited about the direction that my life is going in now, and it can really only get better from here. I am opening myself up to the mysteries and wonders of the Universe and Life. I recently registered for classes under a formal teacher, Carrie of Indigo Paths. and I am really excited to get the ball rolling on this part of my life. Valera recommended her to me so I sought her out, and now I am a student in her Basic Witchcraft class which starts on the 17th and lasts for 14 weeks! I can't wait to learn everything that she has to teach.... I am REALLY, REALLY excited for this!!